No please stop calling me Sweatlee. My actual name is Suet Li, 18, unemployed, college dropout.
Loves to eat. Plays basketball. Hates to drive. That's basically all you need to know about me.
have you ever woke up one day and not feel like doing ANYTHING at all??
Don't feel like sleeping anymore, don't feel like lying on the bed, don't feel like standing up, don't feel like eating, don't feel like peeing, don't feel like doing homework, don't feel like talking, don't feel like..living.
Sigh how lah how. People will do anything to live my life but I just really feel like I don't want to be here. or there. or anywhere. I just feel like disappearing and not exist anymore. Have you ever felt this way? (please say no so i'll feel special wtf) I just feel like hanging myself off the bridge (wuu~) not because I'm depressed but because I just don't feel like i care for anything anymore.
Why lah why.
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I found a term for this terribly complicated and bizarre syndrome. A disease so puzzling that scientists never ever found out where it came from. A syndrome so enigmatic that no one ever found a solution to it.
Ladies and gents, it's called laziness. wtf
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I suddenly feel like I got so much work! *uses hair to strangle self It has been so relaxing the past few weeks and now my work is catching up on me. The worst thing is I have that i-don't-feel-like-doing-anything syndrome (otherwise known as laziness)! How lah how.
Why am I like this T____T Eh, I suddenly feel like going out in the rain, run to the big field and play a flute.
Why have I gone mad! Seriously I'm quite scared for myself now. Why do I suddenly feel like playing a flute? Is it because someone is playing it next door? Or is it because I've really gone mad?
This post is damn nonsense lah I hope no one thinks I'm crazy. Cuckoo cuckoo.
Lalala don't know what to blog about so just gonna post this random filler nonsense to fulfil my blog-every-2-days quota wtf. I have two assignments due next week which I have to try to finish it by Friday cause this Saturday we're going to SIX FLAGS!!!!
WOOT! Six flags are these huge theme parks all over the states and they have the scariest rides ever! We're going for their Freak Fest (since it's Halloween and all) which features stuff like real coffins with maggots and super scary haunted houses! Not like those in Hari Kantin one wtf put chairs and tables everywhere to create a maze and the seniors will wear white cloth over their head and say wuu~ wtf and throw flour and water balloons wtf.
So anyway yeah it's gonna be real scary! And if you wanna cut the queue then you have to eat cockcroach or something first! Wuu~ wtf and we are also thinking of going to Salem which is the scariest place in the US! It's nicknamed as 'The Witch City' cause it was where people who were supposedly witches were burnt and hung to death last time. How fun, the true spirit of Halloween! No more dressing in cliched costumes to clubs too!
Anyway since we're talking about this, do you know that my college is one of the most haunted colleges in the US??! %$@#$@ Aud, angie and I were scaring ourselves like crazy cause we were talking about horror movies and ghosts and all T___T I hate ghosts so so much. Seriously I'm really really a chicken, I admit that! I get scared very extremely easily but I still love scaring myself. I like paying RM9 to watch a horror flick and cover 9.5/10 of my view with my hands. I love scary rides in theme parks (maybe because since I already paid for it, why not ride them all?)
Ya and we were talking about all those scary shits and they said that in our dorm, the laundry room is supposed to be haunted!
WTF
LOOK CLOSELY AT THE DRYER AND YOU'LL SEE A HEAD ROLLING ABOUT!!!!!!!!@$#!$@#%!$@%#^&$&#^
ZOMG seriously I got damn damn scared ok! Somemore I camwhored in this place for 30 mins wtf! Alone!
*breathes in breathes out
Shit lah fucking scared now what if someone taps me on the shoulder and says "i'm the ghost from the laundry room and why are you blogging about meeee!!!!!!!!!"
fuck wanna sleep night.
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P.S: Shit lah I'm insomniac! I was so scared last night and tried to fall asleep but I couldn't! I don't know why but it has been happening for the past 3 days as well. I just woke up one day and turned insomniac
I tried every method I know to fall asleep- warm milk before bedtime, chamomile tea, banana wtf, MEDITATING before I sleep! But everything doesn't work! Maybe because I had cold milk instead..and i drank the chamomile tea 2 hrs before bed, and whenever I meditate, my thoughts always drift to something else like what should I blog about today wtf..
Kill me lah I only had 5 hours of sleep the past few days =(
No why everyone thought I'm going to Las Vegas! Do I look rich wtf. I think I'm underage too? Anyway what I meant by Las Vegas Night is Mount Holyoke's annual party! Every year, there'll be this huge party called Las Vegas Night where everything will be pumped up Vegas style =)
It was so cool! At the campus center, everything was turned into a casino and we got to gamble! But not with real money lah, we gambled with chips and then we checked the chips in to win stuff (which we didn't bother with)
Preparty at Aud and Angie's room.
(I'm numbering the pics pinkpau style so it's easier to refer to them)
#1 With Aud. With Angie.
#2 Angie, Me, Aud, Neal and dunno who's that guy behind us wtf
#3 I was checking myself out in the mirror wtf.
People who were in their room. We only knew half of them i think #4 Angie love (I think she was drunk here)
#7 Angie and Aud. Point of this photo is to show you the girl who is extremely serious in the background. See that girl with the choker?? Damn kao serious, not like this is the real las vegas also! Then 3 of us came and giggled and laughed so much, I think she got annoyed at us for disrupting the seriousness of the whole thing.
Some more we got so lucky and won so many times! Whenever the dealer asked us if we wanna hit or stay, she had to shout cause we were busy giggling and taking shameless pictures of ourselves.
#8 Gambling with elegance wtf
We were damn kiasu one haha you know what we did?! Everyone gets a free chip and they'll mark your hand with a marker pen to ensure that you don't get a second chip but you know what we did? We used our saliva to rub the marking off so we could get a second chip wtf. Then when we told everyone to do the exact same thing too, they looked at us, shook their heads and go "typical asians tsk tsk" wtf
#9 Dunno who are all these people but whee that's my leg wtf
#10 With Daphne the Vietnamese girl
#11 Aud love
#12 Our pimp wtf
#13 sisterly love. oh no that would make barry and i siblings too. incest wtf.
#14 On the dancefloor
#15 Shanshan looks really good here!
#16 With Sambo and the lovers wtf
#17 The super packed dancefloor. There were at least 2000 of us inside I think. The music sucked but the company was really great. There were people making out everywhere with bra and panties wtf.
#18 Before going back
It was soooo fun, can you tell? The only part I hated the most was walking back in the cold with NO coat! 5 celcius with my tube dress, I swear I almost froze to death. Somemore this Angie and Shanshan can stop halfway to gaze at the sky filled with stars! I literally peed in my dress due to the extreme cold ok wtf. Who cares about stars now T_T
So that's all, the end! Have a nice day everyone while I get started on my homework. On Sunday night. at 11.25 pm.
Hi today it's the 12th again and that marks our 34th month together now =D
This is another emo entry on how much I'm blessed to be with that one guy i truly love so if you don't like something mushy like that then you can skip this one and come back 2 days later ok.
When I first met him, I liked him a lot instantly. I like guys like that you know? Dark, cool, sarcastic..and he was all of the above. And I guess I liked him very much then because although he appeared dark and cool on the outside, he was so different when you get to know more of him.
I know my boyfriend doesn't come off as very friendly here in this blog, what with his sarcastic and defensive replies to some comments. But the truth is, those are the replies I really wish I could write sometimes. When some commenters get really annoying, all I can do is be nice because I don't want to offend anyone. So when he comes to the rescue by saying something mean or sarcastic, I'll be really glad cause that's what i really want to say but am too nice to.
Anyway I just want to let you guys who were once offended by his comments to know that he isn't like that at all (well to me at least wtf). He is really really loving and caring and the best part about him is he appears hard and cool outside but inside he's the most passionate and patient guy i know. He's the only person who really cares even if I get a tiny bit mad and he's the only guy who cares to console me till I'm fine again, even after all these years.
Seriously, he has been grossly misunderstood. I know maybe he himself chose to appear that way but I still don't like it when people say stuff like how they like me but hate him and don't want to know about him in my blog. I can't ask him to not do all that because he wouldn't be the same guy I love anymore. And I can't not talk about him because without him, I won't be the same girl whom you like anymore.
Hell I don't know how would I be without him. For one, I wouldn't be in US now and would be happy in some Malaysian university. I would probably continue dating random guys who probably only want to get into my pants. My English definitely wouldn't be as good (seeing that I only date Malay or really Chinese guys before this hence I really have to struggle to speak malay or chinese wtf and not use much english). Sigh what would I be.. Maybe I could've met a better guy? Maybe that guy is filthy rich and I don't have to study anymore and I can just marry him and be a rich tai tai before I'm 20?
But you know what? Who cares! What's important now is I have my perfect guy for me now and I should be grateful and be content. (oh please don't tell me stuff like how would you know he's perfect for you when you're so young and haven't seen other guys yet? why the need when i already am happy now? And what if i let go someone i'm perfectly happy with in hopes of finding someone i could be happier with and end up not finding anyone and have to settle for someone i'm not even happy with?!??)
Have you heard of the bus analogy? Of how finding the right guy is like looking for a bus? The first bus comes and you feel it's too crowded so you tell yourself that you'll wait for the next bus. Next bus comes, too dirty, wait for next bus. Next bus comes, too old and shabby, wait for next bus. In the end, you'll keep on waiting for the perfect bus and if you're lucky, the bus happens to be on the same route but if you're not and by then if it's too late and there aren't any buses anymore then what? walk ah wtf. walk until you die ah wtf.
wtf lah why my emo entry become like this T__T become like a forwarded email titled: looking for the right guy is like getting the right bus wtf
So ya lah to cut the long story short, I already have my right guy for me now and I'm already as happy as i can be, so why bother? Why not just appreciate what I have instead of asking for more right? I think I'm one of those girls people really hate for being so lucky. You can't imagine how lucky I've been really and I have no intention to take any of this for granted, ever.
I love you baby, happy 12th again. Sorry cause this post that was supposedly dedicated to you turned out to be a fwded mail that ends up in the junk mail wtf.
I love you always, thanks for being there for me all the time. Let's continue our MFEO legacy and make everyone envy us ok?
MFEO= made for each other lah like that also dunno
I'm so lame ya i know but at least I'm going to Las Vegas night tomorrow hoho *update later
Before I start this entry, I think I shall announce to everyone that! my boyfriend! is! always!....right.
When I told him about my missing ring, he said I'll surely find it under my bedsheet or something cause I lost it while putting on the bedsheet. I, in my usual womanly self said, NO WAY I checked like a million times already ok! I should know! I'm a woman and I'm always right! So he said wokay up to you but don't get mad when you find it there and I say I told you so..
So after 1 month here, I figured that maybe I should really do my laundry and change my bedsheet already.
and I told you so..
Back to its rightful place =D
Oh well..
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Random pictures:
Roommate went home for the fall break so I colonized her extremely comfy bed hoho
The haunted hallway wtf wuu~
Waitin for my laundry
These are some old pictures from the night before I left. It was a Sunday night and we wanted to go clubbing but everywhere was so dead! Who clubs on Sunday nights anyway? Maison was so empty that the bouncers were playing cards and after making our rounds, we decided to go Ruums instead.
Esther, Kaze, Me, Sarah, Daniel.
The crowd wasn't so bad except that everyone there (except us) was a little lala-ish.
Daniel, Sarah and Andy
Daniel and I
With my favorite bunch of people =D
I miss everyone T____T and the Malaysian flag haha
This is a video of me throwing my birthday cake away =(
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okay I've been reading a lot of New York Times lately (for my Econ assignment la you think i so intellectual one ah wtf, and because the newspapers are free also hahah typical suet li anything free is good one wtf) so I've been reading a hell lot of news on the protests in Burma. Have you heard of it?
The Burmese have always been living under the oppression of the military government and everytime they protest, it ends up in a bloody massacre. This time around, all the monks and nuns want is a peaceful protest for democracy. Is that too much to ask for?
It's when things like this happen and I'm made well aware of it that I feel, damn boy am I lucky. Things would have been so different if I'm born at a different place wouldn't it? What if I was picked at the wrong time when I cross the reincarnation bridge (WTF too much chinese drama hahahaha) and ended up somewhere in Burma? (but then again if I'm born as princess of england then it's still different wtf)
Anyway my point is, go signthis petitionand help them ok? As if it's not bad enough that you don't know about this (hah don't lie! don't pretend like you know abt it before this ok wtf), it'll be worse if you actually read all that crap I wrote, felt bad for them and not sign the petition!
The petition is so that big powers like China and UN will step in so that the military people won't kill them poor monks and nuns who not only have to practice celibacy (poor them =( ), have to shave their heads and now get killed for wanting peace. Then why never kill beauty queens! hah say want world peace but all they know is how to smile only wtf.
End of community message and back to doing more homework sigh.
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EH EH I'M DAMN ADDICTED TO EBAY LAH NOW! how ah!!! Before this I thought people who were addicted to Ebay are damn stupid lor, online stuff where got nice to buy! you don't get the same feel compared to when you go shopping also.
But then, these charmed me all over.
I know they're flat but my classes are damn far away ok how to walk in heels! Bought this for $4.99 plus shipping of $16= $21! (RM70?) (shaddap don't tell me they look like pirate boots ok I'll have the last laugh when I can use them as halloween costume too wtf T___T )
Then I saw that if you buy from the same seller, you get 50% off shipping for the next item! Aiyo apa lagi, hand damn gatal and click to view his items..
And bought this..
FOR $0.01 HAHAHAHHAA God i'm so good at this! plus shipping and it's $8.01!!! omg i love ebay! they have the same one in yellow for $0.01 too but I don't think I should buy anymore................................................................shit lah I'm gonna buy it.
Can you look me in my eyes and say this is not worth $8.01 ah?! RM28 ok damn cheap! But i already bought the white ones! and I'm not even sure if they fit!!!!
OKAY STOP IT! *closes Ebay reluctantly..
But then I forgot that I need warm boots for winter! Warm fuzzy UGG boots mmmm...
And I got this pair.............oh i have sinned oh how have i sinned so badly! This is $19 plus shipping and it's only $26! But but I really need them for winter! *justifies self wtf
The thrill of getting something from Ebay is soooo exciting ok! It's like you bid for that item and wait patiently for the time to end and see if you win it or not and if you do! WOOOT damn happy! =D Especially if you win the item by bidding only $0.01 wtf
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