No please stop calling me Sweatlee. My actual name is Suet Li, 18, unemployed, college dropout.
Loves to eat. Plays basketball. Hates to drive. That's basically all you need to know about me.
Before I start this entry, I think I shall announce to everyone that! my boyfriend! is! always!....right.
When I told him about my missing ring, he said I'll surely find it under my bedsheet or something cause I lost it while putting on the bedsheet. I, in my usual womanly self said, NO WAY I checked like a million times already ok! I should know! I'm a woman and I'm always right! So he said wokay up to you but don't get mad when you find it there and I say I told you so..
So after 1 month here, I figured that maybe I should really do my laundry and change my bedsheet already.
and I told you so..
Back to its rightful place =D
Oh well..
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Random pictures:
Roommate went home for the fall break so I colonized her extremely comfy bed hoho
The haunted hallway wtf wuu~
Waitin for my laundry
These are some old pictures from the night before I left. It was a Sunday night and we wanted to go clubbing but everywhere was so dead! Who clubs on Sunday nights anyway? Maison was so empty that the bouncers were playing cards and after making our rounds, we decided to go Ruums instead.
Esther, Kaze, Me, Sarah, Daniel.
The crowd wasn't so bad except that everyone there (except us) was a little lala-ish.
Daniel, Sarah and Andy
Daniel and I
With my favorite bunch of people =D
I miss everyone T____T and the Malaysian flag haha
This is a video of me throwing my birthday cake away =(
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okay I've been reading a lot of New York Times lately (for my Econ assignment la you think i so intellectual one ah wtf, and because the newspapers are free also hahah typical suet li anything free is good one wtf) so I've been reading a hell lot of news on the protests in Burma. Have you heard of it?
The Burmese have always been living under the oppression of the military government and everytime they protest, it ends up in a bloody massacre. This time around, all the monks and nuns want is a peaceful protest for democracy. Is that too much to ask for?
It's when things like this happen and I'm made well aware of it that I feel, damn boy am I lucky. Things would have been so different if I'm born at a different place wouldn't it? What if I was picked at the wrong time when I cross the reincarnation bridge (WTF too much chinese drama hahahaha) and ended up somewhere in Burma? (but then again if I'm born as princess of england then it's still different wtf)
Anyway my point is, go signthis petitionand help them ok? As if it's not bad enough that you don't know about this (hah don't lie! don't pretend like you know abt it before this ok wtf), it'll be worse if you actually read all that crap I wrote, felt bad for them and not sign the petition!
The petition is so that big powers like China and UN will step in so that the military people won't kill them poor monks and nuns who not only have to practice celibacy (poor them =( ), have to shave their heads and now get killed for wanting peace. Then why never kill beauty queens! hah say want world peace but all they know is how to smile only wtf.
End of community message and back to doing more homework sigh.
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EH EH I'M DAMN ADDICTED TO EBAY LAH NOW! how ah!!! Before this I thought people who were addicted to Ebay are damn stupid lor, online stuff where got nice to buy! you don't get the same feel compared to when you go shopping also.
But then, these charmed me all over.
I know they're flat but my classes are damn far away ok how to walk in heels! Bought this for $4.99 plus shipping of $16= $21! (RM70?) (shaddap don't tell me they look like pirate boots ok I'll have the last laugh when I can use them as halloween costume too wtf T___T )
Then I saw that if you buy from the same seller, you get 50% off shipping for the next item! Aiyo apa lagi, hand damn gatal and click to view his items..
And bought this..
FOR $0.01 HAHAHAHHAA God i'm so good at this! plus shipping and it's $8.01!!! omg i love ebay! they have the same one in yellow for $0.01 too but I don't think I should buy anymore................................................................shit lah I'm gonna buy it.
Can you look me in my eyes and say this is not worth $8.01 ah?! RM28 ok damn cheap! But i already bought the white ones! and I'm not even sure if they fit!!!!
OKAY STOP IT! *closes Ebay reluctantly..
But then I forgot that I need warm boots for winter! Warm fuzzy UGG boots mmmm...
And I got this pair.............oh i have sinned oh how have i sinned so badly! This is $19 plus shipping and it's only $26! But but I really need them for winter! *justifies self wtf
The thrill of getting something from Ebay is soooo exciting ok! It's like you bid for that item and wait patiently for the time to end and see if you win it or not and if you do! WOOOT damn happy! =D Especially if you win the item by bidding only $0.01 wtf
It only takes one day of being alone to realize that god, i miss home so much. We have 4 days off for Fall break, Aud and Angie are in Boston, my roommate went back to New York, I have no classes and I've been sitting in front of my laptop watching 6 episodes of Grey's Anatomy ever since. I have 1 paper to write and a lot of French to revise. I ate leftover from yesterday's dinner for lunch and I'm supposed to call my friend so we can go to Walmart together but I just don't feel like it.
I don't feel like a lot of things. I don't feel like turning the tv on, I don't feel like walking out of my room, I don't feel like doing my homework, I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like anything. So what does one do when one doesn't feel like anything? Is it okay to feel like you don't feel like doing anything? Is it okay to go through life realizing that in all honesty, you don't even feel like doing all of this anymore?
tick tock.
At this moment right here right now, I wish I'm back home. I wish I'm back in Form 5 where we all have this same common goal of doing well in SPM. I wish I'm back to those times when I knew what I was doing and actually felt like doing it. If I'm at home, I'll never be lonely. My mother's perpetual nagging will make me feel so much at home. My brother and sister will be arguing over everything now and I'll feel so much at home. My friends and I will joke over stupid random things in a mamak till the wee hours of the morning and I'll feel so much at home.
Feel so much at home.
I'll never feel at home here, try as I might I know I'll never get used to this place. This place where the leaves are turning red, this place where people say can't instead of cunt, this place where people think it's ok to have sex and moan as loud as they want when the walls are as thin as papers.
Screw it, as much as I hate this, I still have to go through it. I'm gonna call my friend so we can terrorize Walmart together. Yes, I'm going to do just that right now.
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Aiseh since I have nothing better to do now, I shall do Eevon's tag.
When I was reading her blog entry about this tag, I was like screaming at her to tag me tag me!! cause it's a picture tag =D and everyone loves picture tags! I'll try to find pictures I've never posted here before or really old pics so you don't see repeated pics ok?
the most recent picture of you:
When was this taken?
Last week I think. (that's how fat my face is if I don't have my hair to cover part of it and that's how i look if i smile from front)
Who took it?
Dunno wtf
Where was it taken?
Aud's room
a picture of you making a peace sign:
Is this picture in color? Yeap. I know I'm supposed to put one picture only but I want to show them all! First pic was at Port Dickson last year, 2nd pic was last 2 years before I left for South Africa, 3rd was in 2005 when there was the haze thingy.
Are your nails painted in the picture? Nopes
a picture of you with a friend:
Who are you with?
Andy Goh in PD =)
a picture of you in a weird/random place:
Where were you?
Laundry room!!! Haha i was waiting for my clothes to dry (will post all the other pictures later)
Who took the picture?
Self-timer
a picture of you in black and white:
Did you edit this picture to black and white or did you take it like that?
Took it like that i think, back during my school days. This was taken right after SPM! It was a happy happy day =D
Do you like blackandwhite or color pictures better?
doesn't matter as long as i look good la wtf
a picture of you with your hair up:
Jess' surprise party
Heng cutting my hair wtf (i miss being a scout T_T)
Picnic <3
Do you like your hair up?
Yeah I guess..
a picture of you with a WEIRD face:
2003
Is your face more funny or just straight up scary?
HAHAHHAHAHAHA SCARY LIKE HELL WTF
a picture of you wearing a black colored shirt:
long before I know how to put make up and how to pluck my eyebrows, and back when I have my nosebled sessions whenever I drank coffee.
a picture of you wearing a red colored shirt:
strangling my dog wtf
i got these pictures from my old blog! Long before I know how to smile with my mouth open.
a picture of you wearing a green colored shirt:
with a gnome
a picture of you with your halloween costume:
WTF hahaha
a picture of you looking mad:
(actually it's a picture of you with your mouth open but I don't have such indecent picture ok, my mouth is always closed wtf)
Why were you mad?
Because I was late for something i think (as usual)
oklah that's all, for those who are waiting for this,
I tag:
Jiameei love Prudence Pang wtf Audreee 001 Suann huiwen!
Aiseh I don't know who else have a lot of pictures so I'm gonna go blog-hopping now (since I'm damn free) and tag you guys instead ala cheesie style. If you're tagged then do it lah if don't want also it's ok.
=D
p.s: T_______T as fate would have it, my nose bled and stained my white top. then my period came and there was so much blood it looked like i just killed a fetus in the toilet bowl.
Today is a happy happy day for me because it's 27 celcius outside! Everything looks happier, the trees look happy, the birds are chirping happily, the dogs are barking happily, ahh what a happy happy day!
=D
Happy happy, happy happy, happy happy day!
Happy happy, happy happy, happy happy day!
=D
Happy happy, happy happy, happy happy day!
Happy happy,happy happy, happy happy day!
As you can see, I'm damn free wtf. It's either I got used to my normal workload (yays!) or my classes are easy this time but won't be anymore next semester (boo) OR I'm not spending enough time on my work..
Aiseh whatever lah college only what, supposed to have fun right! not stress myself out and die of exhaustion right! *lies to self wtf
Sigh I can't believe I just lied to myself. Today wasn't really a truly happy day for me =( I just had a huge argument with the boyfriend =(
You see, he's supposed to come over next week for 5 days or so but something happened to his ticket (ya again!) and he might not come over. I hate it when something is supposed to happen and it doesn't you know? I super duper hate it and moreover when I asked him what should he do if things don't work out and if he has backup plans and then being a guy he is, he answered stupid stuff like "I'll bomb the guy's house if he doesn't get me my ticket!"
So obviously I got so angry lah, people damn serious then you wanna joke about being Osama wtf. How you wanna bomb people's house in Malaysia when you're here! All the more reason for me to get angry right right right? My anger is justified right?!?1
It got so bad that at one point I had to take a cold shower to dissipate my anger ok. I don't even take cold showers back in Msia! That shows how serious things were wtf. No I'm serious, I was really on the verge of giving everything up once and for all. The fucking distance is killing us. It's so freaking hard to keep things alive when you tend to get angry at everything so easily.
He's supposed to talk to you at 4 and he forgot and went and watch football instead? GET ANGRY LIKE MAD!
Your period is supposed to come but it's late? THROW A HELL OF A TANTRUM!
He says you're overreacting? OVERREACT MORE AND THREATEN TO BREAK UP!
See?? =((((
Stupid lah I wish one of us suddenly has a super damn rich uncle who's dying and decides to give ALL his money to us! then we can build an island and get married! Then we'll ship all our beloved family members and friends over and live happily ever after.
If only things are so simple. I think I'm born in like the wrong era or something cause I have no intention to do anything at all now but to stay in a cave and cook for my family and wait for my husband to return from hunting then we can slowly sneak into the woods and make sweet love when our 2481 children are asleep wtf.
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Oh I just realized that I've yet to introduce my other best friend here!
Hello everyone, meet Angie =)
The girl who will never ever look bad in pictures, ever.
Ever.
EVER.
My new camwhore partner =)
And my new best friend =)
Aud's jealous of my sudden love for Angie so here's an extremely good photo of her <3 Her best best best picture of all time. Seriously damn pretty right!
First time my post is so not self-centered. I feel..different. wtf
And I've never really believed in horoscopes and all but they say that Gemini, Aquarius and Libra are the most compatible bunch and OMG ANGIE IS GEMINIAN, AUD IS AQUARIAN AND I'M LIBRAN. No wonder we get along so well! I think I wanna take astrology as my major now wtf.
It's the beginning of fall and it's already only 9 celcius outside. I hate this unpredictable weather! Back home it's always always 32 celcius and we always know what to wear- cotton tshirt and shorts. Jackets are for rare occassions like to the mall or the cinema and we never ever have to wear scarves or gloves.
But here!
sigh.
It was freaking 0 celcius in our room so I bundled up like crazy before going out, since I expected it to be much colder outside. Thick jacket, thick warm cashmere scarf, leather gloves wtf and boots (not shown).
I had to wait for my roommate to finish bathing so camwhored a little.
Okay maybe more than a little.
My roommate Sarah and I before going out to the library.
I'm Arabian II wtf
Yalah damn suck ok go library also have to wear so thick. It's about 10 mins to walk there so I rather not freeze my butt off even for that 10 minutes.
And then guess what! We walked outside and saw everyone in shorts and tshirts!
It's 25 celcius outside! How can! Our room was 0 celcius! It wasn't even air-conditioned ok. Grr.
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God how I hate cold weather! Anything above 22 celcius is really nice cause it's not humid here and when the sun's out, the weather is sooo damned nice. It's like..cameron/genting highlands? Without the mist.
And it's only the beginning of fall T_________T The temperature will decline slowly and in winter it's gonna be -20 celcius.
(remind self to buy thermal underwears wtf)
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*angsty mode on
/start rant
god i hate americans sometimes. can't they just freaking shut the fuck up?? in class, there are these few girls who can't stop asking questions! like oi you buy the textbooks for fucks ah, can you read first before you come to class? ask so much as if we're not paying for tuition fees! stop wasting everyone's time with your dumb "so you mean, like, the graph, like, slopes down? you know, like, it moves down?" and some of them are so dumb ok 1/x + 5/3x also dunno how to do! Didn't we learn that in kindergarten or something wtf? but the thing is, even though they're so dumb in math but they got damn alot good ideas one lor. like in my english class everyone fights to talk and they don't just talk bimbo talk, they really do know stuff! and we asians usually prop toothpicks in our eyes to stop ourselves from falling asleep wtf. and wtf who cares about can or can't?? why can't americans use can't (kant) instead of can't (kent) which sounds like can (ken). i hate it when i use can't (kant) and they ask "can (ken) or can't (kent)?" damn dumb right why don't you just use can't (kant)??!! damn annoying la so i always end up saying cannot instead. and god don't get me started on americans talking about the war here. they think they damn powerful lor! "of course the war against iraq is justified! Hello, we need to get rid of them terrorists before they start wiping us out!" omg shut the fuck up! can you please hear what you were saying ah! can you look those people in iraq in the eye and say that again ah! stupid i'm more worried about you people wiping us out with your air-headness ok.
/end rant
*angsty mode off
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zzZz
p.s: my boyfriend blogged after one whole year. I swear I'm not saying this because he's mine but his blog is really one of the best out there.
It wasn't much of a ring to begin with; plain tri-metal entwined to make a somewhat flawed ring. When I was first told that the ring is used in some African tribe as a much respected wedding ring, I bought two of them instantly. I was desperate for a souvenir to bring back home and something as meaningful as that brought a much convenient coincidence to a happy ending. I got my (somewhat cheap) souvenir and we got ourselves a pair of rings.
It didn't mean much at first, them rings. I gave it to him, he was happy, so was I and that was the end of it. We wore our rings faithfully, him on his third finger, me on my thumb for it was far too large for me (and they only came in one size). Everything went by smoothly and after 2 years of having it, the ring kind of became a part of me.
Until that night. Oh we all have our 'that night'. That night when everything is supposed to flow smoothly, that night when all those jitters is supposed to stop, that night when things are supposed to be what we want them to be- except that they won't be of course. That disastrous night.
My 'that night' happened to be the night when I arrived here in my room. Amidst all my unpacking and throwing things about and covering my bed with my bedsheets from home, the ring slipped off unnoticed. Because this happened occasionally when I was home as well, I wasn't all that bothered. The ring was far too big for me and I always always find it back anyway.
After all that hoohaa about which side my pillow should go to, near the window or near my desk, (near the desk won) I finally started worrying about my ring. Ok on normal days, it would've appeared mischievously by now. It was supposed to go 'hey suet i'm here, catch me now before you lose me again!' but as fate would have it, it didn't. I searched every nook and cranny of my small room for it but it was nowhere to be found. I took out my bedsheet and pillow and clothes and sanitary pads and undies and threw them unceremoniously into a pile to make my search easier but it was gone.
I was crazy upset. Of all days it chose to leave me, this is the worse day that could ever be. I had just settled into my new home, I was lonely as hell, my internet connection wasn't working and my period was here. But that day it was. It was as if the ring just decided that 31st August was a perfect day for it to just up and go.
and up and go it went.
Maybe it's true when people say you won't realize something is gone when it's truly gone. I swear nothing felt true-er than this.
It was a hasty departure on your part and I will forever blame this on you, dear ring. I did nothing to deserve such a big slap on my face. You knew how much you meant to me, to us, and yet you chose to leave.
No, no, no I take all that back. I don't blame this on you! silly me! of course it was all my fault to begin with. Why didn't I treasure those times? Why did i regard you as merely a useless jewelery? Why did I only care when you're gone?
Please come back. I miss you. The thumb misses you.
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Oh the leaves are already turning red. Where fore art thou, ring? Are you ever going to come back to me again?
It's been a month now and I'm tired of all this peekaboo. It's not the loss of just you as a ring, it's the loss of something more that that.
I want to say losing you felt as if I lost everything that has to do with you as well but that will be much too exaggerated because after all, you're just a cheap tri-metal ring.
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