Sweat Betul

5/6/2007

Random Post #2526

The boyfriend is coming back in exactly 3 days from now and my heart can't stop beating like crazy! Berdegup-degup (or berdebar-debar?) for the whole day whenever I thought of it!

God and I haven't decided what to wear yet! And all the other minute details like whether I should tie my hair, let it go or curl it, whether I should wear heels or pumps, whether I should bring a handbag or go without, which watch I should wear, what are the first words I shall say and things like that. It seriously is driving me insane. I'm not kidding when I say I lie awake for an hour every night just questioning things like these.

But then again, I can't possible overlook small details like these cause after all it's our first time meeting in over four months! First impression always counts, even after all these years. Should I hug him first or let him carry me up? Should I kiss him on the lips first or cheek! omg these are truly serious dilemmas.

Sigh but what do you know eh, people who have not been through long-distance relationship? *smug wtf

What do you know about not being able to touch your loved one for so many months? What do you know about being reunited after so long and got separated again? What do you know about the pain of arguing over the phone and not being able to make up physically? What do you know about being celibate for so long? What do you know about the feeling of touching each other again, the feeling of the first hug, the first kiss, the first everything?

Haha I'm such an arse. But I just wanna let you know that if you ever have to go through all this, you'll know how all the waiting is so worth it when you know you are going to meet again in mere 3 days.

3 days.

Sigh, I never knew 3 days could be thaaat long.

3 days.

All I can do is just shit sleep eat and he'll be in my arms again. That's not too hard, or is it?

I have no idea why but I just feel like talking about my childhood. Back when I was still fat in Standard 6, I used to like this guy for an awfully long time, like 3 years? And that guy was also the heartthrob of the school wtf, and he used to date my popular best friend T___T

So anyway, I still remember all this as if it happened yesterday wtf. What happened was, this Mr Heartthrob liked to snap girls' bra straps. Don't ask me why but because of him, suddenly all the guys went around snapping girls' bra straps as if it's an epidemic.

And what also happened was I still hadn't started wearing bra yet. So I really wanted that guy I liked to pull my bra strap wtf so I went back to 'talk' to my mom about it. I still remember how nervous I felt then!

"Mummy, err..can buy err..bra for me?"

wtfwtfHAHAHAHHAAH. Yeah so she got me my first pair of bras and the next day, I went to school feeling like a grown woman *proud

And that was also the last day of school and all of us were happily throwing flour at water balloons and each other. Ahh, what fond memories. And the moment I was waiting for came..cause that guy finally snapped my bra strap!

Boy, you have no idea how happy I felt then. Like to be accepted, to fit into the norm, to be appreciated. glory glory..

But that moment of glory was replaced by shame when that guy went around telling people that I have no boobs. T_____T

Asshole wtf. I was only Std 6 ok! And he also said I was fat and he'd never like me to my best friend who obviously told me a few seconds later with much enthusiasm. That was my last memory of my primary schooldays which basically summarizes my entire time there.

Oh and I also remember this! When I was in standard 4, I was with my parents in 7-eleven when I saw condoms. I asked them what those are and like any typical Asian parents, they said, "don't ask so much lah"

So! what I did was when I reached home, I immediately reached fot the dictionary and searched for Condom. I didn't understand what the dictionary said at all, something about gloves for men's penises (i didn't even understand penis then) but I didn't want to embarrass myself, so I went up to my parents and rubbed my hands, saying something like "heh heh now I know what it means already! Heh heh heh"

And I only knew the real meaning of condom when I was 14, four long years later =.=

The end wtf I hope you were entertained.

Posted at 12:40:40 am by expectation
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5/3/2007

omg why is the rum gone??

BIG NEWS BIG NEWS!!!

ZE LAPTOP HAS ARRIVZE..

Okay I'm not a computer person but the specs are something like this:
-80GB hard disk
-2000mb RAM
-DVD/RW dual layer something
-15 months antivirus
-True life screen (glossy screen! not the usual LCD screen! i can use my laptop in the car you suckers!)

I bought a backpack and webcam too! since my webcam almost nyawa nyawa ikan already. Tsk ladies and gents, never buy cheap China brand webcam. Buy Targus wtf.

Glossy screen!

Sigh I suck at this technical stuff so I'll do what I do best wtf

Woot!

Oh yeah I found out the tricks behind these Friendster pan cute girls! All you need is a webcam and good lighting and..

voila! i look so cute hor wtf just add a little make up and photoshop and I can soon have the SuEtz I FULL, SuetZ II FULL accounts wtf

Playing with it =)

Click for bigger image. Look at the side thingy, so so cool. I can add other stuff in too!

I love you, nameless Dell laptop! What shall I name this love of mine? <3

Shit I gotta go out now. Will continue this post later!!

Ze boyfriend is coming back in 5 days! =D

P.S: Did I mention that I upgraded mine to Windows Vista Home Premium?? It's so effing cool yo! really, simple things like how the windows fade in and out and the uber cool graphics really make me happy! and the nice side widget thingy where you can add calendar, clock, puzzle game, memo!!!

God i'm so lovin' this! And since I bought this with my own hard-earned money, i think I'm gonna appreciate every single features it has! =D

Posted at 7:56:11 pm by expectation
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4/30/2007

The First Day

of my diet. has. failed.

T__________T

I knew this will happen! Okay actually it wasn't so bad but it definitely didn't go as planned. By 12pm, I was starving like crazy even after a glass of milk and an apple so when my sister cooked spaghetti, I couldn't resist..
plus! i read in a health website that pasta and grain are under "good nutrition", so I guess it'll be okay since I only ate like..10 strands wtf.

And the rest of the day I only had a glass of starfruit juice and shared a plate of salad with jiameei. And! I went cycling in the evening!
And! I ate a tiny bit of rice (1 tablespoon!) and a tiny bit of fish and a lot of vege for dinner! And I'm so hungry now so I'm eating some orange yoghurt from Nestle (not nice don't buy wtf)

Sigh I guess it's not too bad right? Considering that everyone said my diet plan of only yoghurt and fruits is not so good, so now that I'm including a bit of carbohydrate then I guess it should be better.

*happy!

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Some pictures from my current weekend job:

I look like shit here but check out the uniform! I am so loving this job cause our employer, Volvo, is so so so so nice! They gave us the shirt and vest and gave us money to buy our pants and shoes! Not only that, the pay is so incredibly good for what we need to do plus we can keep the shirt after this!

I <3 Volvo everyone please buy Volvo okay cause it's cheap and it's the safest car ever and volvo's cars are 95% recyclable save the environment wtf.
And now their cars aren't the box-ey type anymore! in fact the convertible is kinda sexy.

Oh this is my colleague, Matthew =) He's one of the members of Comeback Kings, that bunch of comedians wtf. He said I'm sadistic and we all know that it's not true >=(
But he's a really nice guy who also said I'm an enigma for being idealistic and realistic at the same time. I think that's the best description of me anyone had ever gave. I'll talk about this later.

But one bad thing though, we have to stand outside with the jockeys so it gets really hot, especially when you're wearing something like this.

Our job is to give this gift box to people with nice cars! That's all! <3 and some guys are so rich and cute *fans self cause too excited wtf

Random pictures of my cousin:

How cute is that!

Awwww =D
A natural camwhore, a baby after my own heart =)

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Okay so back to me being an enigma. Yeah I think that's the best word to describe me instead of words like unstable and insane wtf. I told him that if I have a million dollars and I must spend it in one day, I'd do anything but charity. (which was what I told people in the UWC interview where as everyone else said they'll give the money to charity come on lah don't bullshit me okay. that's why i didn't get the scholarship =( )

Ok this is what I think, which is a very controversial thing to say but what the heck, it's my opinion anyway. If I have a million dollars to spend in one day, why not spend it on myself? Why be noble when these people are gonna die anyway? I know this is really mean but face the reality of life, it's not like I get a million bucks every other day anyway.

So this part about me is being realistic. Apparently I'm also idealistic because..okay i can't remember why. Shit my sis is standing behind me cause it's her turn to use the comp now and I can't blog under pressure wtf.

BTW I BOUGHT A NEW DELL LAPTOP AND IT'S ARRIVING THIS THURSDAY WOOT!! no more sharing with the siblings! no more catfights over the computer! I taste the sweet taste of freedom yumm.

oh yays tomorrow is Wesak Day wtf.

Posted at 8:46:49 pm by expectation
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4/27/2007

Me and My Weight wtf

Sorry I can't blog much cause I'm working this fri, sat and sun so I'll continue this post some other time ok!

Anyway everyone knows I'm obsessed with food, and I also hate gaining weight. But the thing is my body's metabolism is so so low that I never seem to lose much weight at all! After my dramatic weight loss in Form 3 where I lost about 8 kg, my weight stays the same ever since.

For the past month, I tried shedding off those fats by exercising three times a week and eating only two spoons of rice. Not that spoon spoon, tablespoon spoon! Yeah it's damn little okay! But after one whole month, I didn't only lose weight, I think I gained weight! wtf how is this even possible!

So i've deviced this diet cleverly and will try this for a week to see if it works or not.

Current weight: 47 kg. fine fine i'm lying T____T I used to be 47! and then the other day, I saw this California fitness place where they weigh you and all that and I was suddenly 49 kg! OMFG. The instructor even looked at me pitifully and shaked his head, muttering something along the lines of "boy, you sure are fat"
T___________T

Cleverly deviced diet plan:
Monday:
For breakfast: yoghurt and cereal bar
For lunch: Banana and apple
For dinner: Vegetable and fruits

Repeat for Tues, Wed, Thurs and Fri wtf.

Yeah I'm serious that's what I'm gonna eat! And drink lots and lots of water! Let's see if I'll lose much weight for the whole of next week. Jiameei said I need protein but I don't care! She said yoghurt got sugar and cereal bars got carbs but how, I like those! I don't wanna eat tofu cause I don't like tofu =(

Actually the reason why I wanna lose weight is..heh..last 3 months in January when the boyfriend left, I looked at him walking away from me in the airport and told myself with determination so strong I nearly toppled over that I MUST SLIM DOWN TO 42 KG MY IDEAL WEIGHT when he comes home but now! there's only one week left before he's back! and instead of losing that 5kg I gained 2 kg!

T___________T

42 kg, are you there? 42kg, my ideal weight, will you please wait for me? 42kg shine shine.

So anyway today I was so hungry after work cause I only ate a burger for the whole day so I ate indomie.. with sunny side up egg =(
I told myself that I must not finish it but I even licked the plate clean.
LITERALLY.

Huhu okay diet starts on Monday when I stop working!

Looks like I finished the entire post as opposed to me saying that I'm tired. People, please tell me of any diet which is better than this! And I must be able to lose a bit of weight in a week! Throw up after I eat ah wtf. Don't ask me to exercise more okay the more I exercise the heavier I am I'm serious!

Oh yeah another reason why I wanna be 42 kg is cause I know I WILL gain at least 15 pounds when I go to the states so I might as well lose them now and then gain them back so I look normal and not gain them when I'm there if not I'll look fat! Good theory right *pats self wtf

The end *sleeps on keyboard

P.S: I'm 157 cm (in denial again, i'm only 156. but i always put 157cm and 47 kg in forms hohoho)

P.P.S: I don't look fat but that's cause my pics don't do justice! If you see me in real life, I'll show you my fats I promise I'll take up my shirt on the street and point out my flabs! Then you'll nod in agreement too wtf.

Posted at 11:59:12 pm by expectation
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4/24/2007

Thing I Wanna Do/Eat Before I Leave!

I actually have no mood to blog at all until I move to my new blog but since it's not officially ready yet (I'm mentally not prepared yet wtf, it's a big decision for me), I'm going to write in here first.

So during my mandarin class just now and everyone was busy talking about how they celebrate new year every year (I said all I do is receive angpow, say gong xi gong xi and watch TV the whole day wtf), I was thinking about this. Hmm what should I include in my Food to Eat Before I Leave list?

1. Chicken rice (anywhere)
2. Char Kuey Teow (preferably Penang's)
3. Nasi lemak (in front of my school's!)
4. Maggi Goreng (?)
5. Wan tan mee (behind my house)
6. Pan Mee (SS19)
7. Pork noodles (Subang)
8. Bak kut teh (KLANG'S)
9. Seafood (Teluk Gong again!!)
10. Claypot chicken rice (?)
11. claypot loh shee fun (murni's)
12. Assam laksa (penang's or malacca's)
13. Tom yam (thai fair in Summit!)
14. Cendol (malacca! malacca)
15. ..?

oh noes I don't know what else to eat! help anyone? and please give me the exact place too so I can track it down! Oh noes I so have to lose that 10 kg now! And I'm only looking for cheap Msian food ok.

Places I want to go before I leave:

1. Gua tempurung!
2. Cameron Highlands
3. Some hot spring in Perak?
4. Redang
5. Camp somewhere nice!
6. ...?

I suddenly feel like going hiking somewhere..Somewhere for beginners, somewhere I can see nice scenery of Malaysia, my last glance before I leave T_____T

okay i don't know what to blog about anymore! I'm losing the touch huhu. Pleaseee tell me where to eat! (if you're my good friend, don't tell me where to eat ok to refrain this pig from eating more than she should wtf)

Posted at 10:58:25 pm by expectation
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