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Sorry I can't blog much cause I'm working this fri, sat and sun so I'll continue this post some other time ok!
Anyway everyone knows I'm obsessed with food, and I also hate gaining weight. But the thing is my body's metabolism is so so low that I never seem to lose much weight at all! After my dramatic weight loss in Form 3 where I lost about 8 kg, my weight stays the same ever since.
For the past month, I tried shedding off those fats by exercising three times a week and eating only two spoons of rice. Not that spoon spoon, tablespoon spoon! Yeah it's damn little okay! But after one whole month, I didn't only lose weight, I think I gained weight! wtf how is this even possible!
So i've deviced this diet cleverly and will try this for a week to see if it works or not.
Current weight: 47 kg. fine fine i'm lying T____T I used to be 47! and then the other day, I saw this California fitness place where they weigh you and all that and I was suddenly 49 kg! OMFG. The instructor even looked at me pitifully and shaked his head, muttering something along the lines of "boy, you sure are fat"
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Cleverly deviced diet plan:
Monday:
For breakfast: yoghurt and cereal bar
For lunch: Banana and apple
For dinner: Vegetable and fruits
Repeat for Tues, Wed, Thurs and Fri wtf.
Yeah I'm serious that's what I'm gonna eat! And drink lots and lots of water! Let's see if I'll lose much weight for the whole of next week. Jiameei said I need protein but I don't care! She said yoghurt got sugar and cereal bars got carbs but how, I like those! I don't wanna eat tofu cause I don't like tofu =(
Actually the reason why I wanna lose weight is..heh..last 3 months in January when the boyfriend left, I looked at him walking away from me in the airport and told myself with determination so strong I nearly toppled over that I MUST SLIM DOWN TO 42 KG MY IDEAL WEIGHT when he comes home but now! there's only one week left before he's back! and instead of losing that 5kg I gained 2 kg!
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42 kg, are you there? 42kg, my ideal weight, will you please wait for me? 42kg shine shine.
So anyway today I was so hungry after work cause I only ate a burger for the whole day so I ate indomie.. with sunny side up egg =(
I told myself that I must not finish it but I even licked the plate clean.
LITERALLY.
Huhu okay diet starts on Monday when I stop working!
Looks like I finished the entire post as opposed to me saying that I'm tired. People, please tell me of any diet which is better than this! And I must be able to lose a bit of weight in a week! Throw up after I eat ah wtf. Don't ask me to exercise more okay the more I exercise the heavier I am I'm serious!
Oh yeah another reason why I wanna be 42 kg is cause I know I WILL gain at least 15 pounds when I go to the states so I might as well lose them now and then gain them back so I look normal and not gain them when I'm there if not I'll look fat! Good theory right *pats self wtf
The end *sleeps on keyboard
P.S: I'm 157 cm (in denial again, i'm only 156. but i always put 157cm and 47 kg in forms hohoho)
P.P.S: I don't look fat but that's cause my pics don't do justice! If you see me in real life, I'll show you my fats I promise I'll take up my shirt on the street and point out my flabs! Then you'll nod in agreement too wtf.
Posted at 11:59:12 pm by expectation
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Thing I Wanna Do/Eat Before I Leave!
I actually have no mood to blog at all until I move to my new blog but since it's not officially ready yet (I'm mentally not prepared yet wtf, it's a big decision for me), I'm going to write in here first.
So during my mandarin class just now and everyone was busy talking about how they celebrate new year every year (I said all I do is receive angpow, say gong xi gong xi and watch TV the whole day wtf), I was thinking about this. Hmm what should I include in my Food to Eat Before I Leave list?
1. Chicken rice (anywhere)
2. Char Kuey Teow (preferably Penang's)
3. Nasi lemak (in front of my school's!)
4. Maggi Goreng (?)
5. Wan tan mee (behind my house)
6. Pan Mee (SS19)
7. Pork noodles (Subang)
8. Bak kut teh (KLANG'S)
9. Seafood (Teluk Gong again!!)
10. Claypot chicken rice (?)
11. claypot loh shee fun (murni's)
12. Assam laksa (penang's or malacca's)
13. Tom yam (thai fair in Summit!)
14. Cendol (malacca! malacca)
15. ..?
oh noes I don't know what else to eat! help anyone? and please give me the exact place too so I can track it down! Oh noes I so have to lose that 10 kg now! And I'm only looking for cheap Msian food ok.
Places I want to go before I leave:
1. Gua tempurung!
2. Cameron Highlands
3. Some hot spring in Perak?
4. Redang
5. Camp somewhere nice!
6. ...?
I suddenly feel like going hiking somewhere..Somewhere for beginners, somewhere I can see nice scenery of Malaysia, my last glance before I leave T_____T
okay i don't know what to blog about anymore! I'm losing the touch huhu. Pleaseee tell me where to eat! (if you're my good friend, don't tell me where to eat ok to refrain this pig from eating more than she should wtf)
Posted at 10:58:25 pm by expectation
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HELLO I AM PMS-ING AND I HATE EVERYONE. I HATE THE WHOLE WORLD. I WANT TO DIE. LET ME DIEEEEE.
I HATE WORDPRESS. I HATE LOOKING FOR A THEME AND I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT WHEN I FOUND THE THEME I WANTED AFTER LOOKING AT LITERALLY 230 THEMES AND NOT KNOWING HOW TO UPLOAD THE THEME INTO MY WORDPRESS.
I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE THINNER THAN ME AND MAKE A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT. I HATE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LOSE 10 KGS TO FEEL ACCEPTED.
I HATE KIDS WHO SCREAM IN THE POOL. I HATE IT WHEN THE POOL IS CROWDED AND I CAN'T SWIM. I HATE IT WHEN I CAN'T SWIM AND SECRETLY FEEL HAPPY CAUSE DON'T NEED TO EXERCISE BUT AT THE SAME TIME FEEL SHITTIER CAUSE I'M NOT LOSING ANY WEIGHT.
I AM HAVING A BIG IDENTITY CRISIS. I WOKE UP FROM MY NAP THINKING THAT I AM A PIG. I AM SERIOUS DO I LOOK LIKE I'M JOKING TO YOU.
AND I REALLY HATE PEOPLE WHO TYPE IN CAPS.
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So there! I feel so much better. I'm feeling so depressed! I don't even know why I'm pms-ing 3 days after my period! Huhu and I'm so frustrated when I don't even know how to upload a theme into my wordpress. After like gazillion months and I'm finally ready for my new blog which poof isn't any surprise anymore, I don't know how to do this.
I only have myself to be blamed! Cause all this while I've been depending on Andrew to do all this for me and now I don't even know how to do something as simple as that. When I stopped panicking, I thought of asking him for help again. But I told myself that I can't, I must learn to do it myself! So I searched for help and all the help sites came up with so many new words that I don't know and got me so confused!!1
wtf is xhtml css ftp dwqrq!@$!$%!%^@
So great now I'm more agitated than ever. GRR I hate not knowing what to do with something. I hate that do you hear me!
It's okay, I emailed Andrew for help again =(
Thank you people who did my test =( so sad why everyone don't know so many things about me =( and to think that my test is the easiest amongst all the TheClub members.
Anyway here are the answers so no point doing that test anymore okay.
1. How long have I been with Barry?
A: This is easy lah if you read my blog you'd know that our anniversary is 12/12 so do the math and it should be 1 year 4 months, 2 years 4 months or 3 years 4 months. Then you can roughly guess lah.
2. My english name.
A: The rest sound ridiculous. I think everyone got this right.
3. If i get stranded on an island, what will I bring?
A: Why nobody answered guitar! Do I look like someone who can't strum to you? =( Ipod and camera? They'll run outta battery lah! Obviously a very good book. I'm so sad my boyfriend got this wrong.
4. How much will I spend on a top?
A: RM15?? wtf why so many people thought I'm so stingy! I mean yeah I'm so stingy that in TheClub, my persona is stingy wtf. but RM15 is ridiculous lah even pasar malam clothes are more expensive than that! I would spend RM50.
5 and 6. I don't have a pet =.= Do I even look like someone who has fishes?? I love dogs but if I have one, I'd camwhore like crazy with it. I hate cats cause they look so evil. And I don't like fishes cause they're smelly and slimy.
7. What is my fav food?
A: haha alot of people answered indomie cause it's in CAPS right? No wrong I love chicken rice, sushi and indomie so basically i love everything!
8. I think this question is the hardest. My fav TV series?
A: If you remember, when I first talked about TV series, it was about One Tree Hill. It's the first TV series that got me really addicted so yeap, it's my fav.
9. Best asset?
A: MY BEST ASSET IS MY FINGERS?!?!! DAMN INSULTING LAH EVERYONE. Does that mean I don't have any best asset at all that I had to choose my fingers?! Therefore I'm not telling the answer.
10. Fav phrase in real life?
A: not wtf lah silly! I don't say wtf all that much in real life. sweet niblings is from Hannah Montana do you think I'll say something for a kids tv show?? OMG !xobile is close but I don't say !xobile at all irl. If you know me really well (even not in real life), you'd know that it's "I'm so sexy hor"
11. What do I do in my spare time?
A: If you need the answer to this, go kill yourself.
But anyway, thanks for the effort =)
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I went Nichii with Jolene, Mel, Lie Yuen and Cherry the other day and bought new clothes! (please read about our adventure in KL in Jolene's blog)
This is my new top. I bought the same one as Mel! After discount, RM30.
This jacket/blazer is RM63 after discount. Woot, it surpassed my RM50 quota wtf but since it's a jacket, then i guess it's okay.
It has a detachable hoodie! I have a soft spot for jackets.
There were so many other clothes I wanted to buy but I only brought RM100 so looks like I'll go there again when Aud comes home.
And I hate being indecisive =(
Ask them! I took like ages to decide which ones to buy. Everyone must hate me all the time.
Okay the pool's empty, let me go swim before I start talking about my miseries again boohoo I'm so sad and pathetic boohoo wtf.
Posted at 8:30:05 pm by expectation
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THE GREAT SWEATLEE TEST wtf
Create your own Friend Test hereHoho this is so fun! Thanks Tze for introducing this wtf. Try doing this, you might be my secret best friend I never knew existed!
oh yeah #10, I meant what is my favourite phrase, not word.
Good luck!
(psst you have to sign up, but it's really easy! They won't spam you whatsoever, trust me.)
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The other day I was swimming in the pool and after 2 minutes of swimming, I took a rest wtf and chillax-ed for a bit. I was flapping my arms and legs in my own world when suddenly I noticed a long brown thing trailing alongside me.
Obviously I freaked out because of that traumatic experience of almost touching a piece of shit in the pool so I started swimming away from that brown thing.
And that thing followed me! I kept shouting OMG wtf go away go away but it kept trailing beside me!!!1
I was so so horrified but when it did touch me, I finally realized that it was my own hair.
=.=
Thank god no one was in the pool or else they'd think I'm some crazy woman who runs away from her own hair. And to think that I actually shouted omg go away go away!!
Tsk, sometimes I wonder why I have friends.
Posted at 11:48:34 am by expectation
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Before I start off this post, let me just say that Wentworth Miller wins hands down. No more competition, no more dilemma <3
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Today marks the big TWENTY and I'm really really emo about it. It's officially twenty days till the boyfriend is back again and I so can't wait! I've been quite emotional for the past few days (hormones to be blamed, period's here remember?) and I just can't stop daydreaming!
*dreamy sigh
There are soooo many things I want to talk about right now but they're all so jumbled up. What should I talk about first? And most importantly, should I even talk about it? I'm not sure if my boyfriend will like me disclosing confidential information to the public but he has always been very supportive of my blog here. Whenever I ask if he'll be comfortable if I blog about certain things, he'll say it's my blog so it's up to me.
I truly don't understand how some boyfriends don't even allow their girlfriends to talk about their relationship in their blogs. I'll be so mad if i was them! It's my god-given rights and I shall fully utilize it. Imagine how restained those relationships will be if I can't even blog about whatever I want. Grr.
And don't get me started on boyfriends who don't allow their girlfriends to wear whatever they want. Fuck off lah you think you're my father ah now. And when we say you can't play computer games or go cybercafe then cannottt, cause we'll be too controlling then. Why are women always always the victim.
Fuck off you men *suddenly sour wtf
So where was I! Oh yes back to my boyfriend coming back in 20 days. Remember what I said about how the first kiss and the first time he held my hand after he came back felt so much like the first all over again? And i've been thinking about that a lot lately.
*dreamy sigh again
God long distance sure is hard. From reading my blog, it may sound like a breeze cause you don't hear me complaining about it much. But it truly is killing me every single day. I wake up every morning thinking whether if today will be our last day together, if today I'll lose interest and ask for a break, if today I might find someone else, if today we might have a big argument.
Whenever we do argue, I try not to blog about it because I know all that anger and hatred i have for him is temporary and if I put them down in words, they'll be permanently etched. And I hate the idea of people reading it and somehow get false impression on him. Obviously, whatever I write will be on my side and everyone will hate him in return.
And after like a few hours, the anger will subside and we'll patch and make up but the angry entry i wrote will still be there. Wouldn't it be terribly awkward then? i'll feel so so stupid but the last thing i'll ever do is to delete an entry from my blog. If i feel like that entry will offend someone and if i will remove it later, i shouldn't have published it to the public's eye in the first place, should i?
Shit. Where the hell was i?
right. boyfriend. back. in. 20. days. woot!
I already planned what to wear and all that when I go get him from the airport. In fact I even planned what I'll do! Sorry lah but I really have nothing to do these days. So I'm gonna jump up to him, like how he wants me to do it all the time. But a little embarrassing lah, imagine doing this whole Bollywood thingy, running to your dearest while shouting his name at the same time jiggling your boobs and then leap into his waiting arms?
euk.
But for the sake of him loving me more, I shall do it! babe if you're reading this, no i'm just lying, i obviously won't do something like that.
great i don't know what to write anymore. I suck at proclaiming my undying love to someone i love.
Sometimes when I think of how I suffer to keep this relationship alive when we're a million miles apart, I get really depressed. But then I'll think of all the things we'll do when he comes home and I'll cheer up in no time. Seriously, nothing beats being apart for 4 months and reunite again! All that longing and pent up passion could seriously kill an elephant.
So if you want to know the secret of how my ldr works, it's this. We both just keep cheering ourselves up by telling each other things we want to do together, things we shall eat and stuff like that.
And i keep thinking of how we can have 3 months of honeymoon together before we fly to the states, together! I'll be staying with him for a week or so before I fly off to start my college. We won't be staying together (massachusetts and indiana are 12 hours apart  ) but we will visit each other during spring breaks and all.
So it'll be fun =D
OH have I told you that he's in a men's college and i'm going to a women's college? How wicked.
This entry is anything but emotional, doesn't even deserve its title but what the heck.
I really can't wait to start college in a brand new place. I know I might not enjoy my life there but that beats bumming like shit over here. I know I'll regret saying this but I'm suffering like crazy now! All I do every single day is sleep in, watch tv, surf mindlessly and eat. I swear my butt is so much flatter from all that sitting and bumming.
I wish I'm not so lazy. There are a million and one things I can do. I could clean the house (RIIIGHT), I could learn something new (other than my mandarin classes. i really want to learn how to cook, and sew, and speak french, or learn how to dance! god how i suck at dancing), I could do charity! or learn a new sport (definitely gonna learn horse-riding in college, they have a huge equestrian center!).
There are so many things I can opt to do but guess what? I'm too lazy to =(
Shit let's all move back to my point of entry.
So as I was saying, he'll be back in 20 days. hooray!
the end.
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I was reading this book about how this guy had a perfect life; loving wife, adorable son, great job- until he had a one night stand and his wife found out. Naturally, she left him and he had to learn to live without her that kinda thing.
After a few pages and a lot of yadda yaddas, he kissed another girl. He fucking kissed another girl.
That's it, I'm so going to stop reading. I've never not finish reading a book in my life before. No matter how bad a book is, I always tell myself that I have to finish it. Because I always feel that every writer has a good story to tell and it'll be a shame if I don't at least find out where that climax is.
But this kinda story? I can't do it.
Posted at 7:07:27 pm by expectation
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