Sweat Betul

4/18/2007

Emo post #24153

Before I start off this post, let me just say that Wentworth Miller wins hands down. No more competition, no more dilemma <3

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Today marks the big TWENTY and I'm really really emo about it. It's officially twenty days till the boyfriend is back again and I so can't wait! I've been quite emotional for the past few days (hormones to be blamed, period's here remember?) and I just can't stop daydreaming!

*dreamy sigh

There are soooo many things I want to talk about right now but they're all so jumbled up. What should I talk about first? And most importantly, should I even talk about it? I'm not sure if my boyfriend will like me disclosing confidential information to the public but he has always been very supportive of my blog here. Whenever I ask if he'll be comfortable if I blog about certain things, he'll say it's my blog so it's up to me.

I truly don't understand how some boyfriends don't even allow their girlfriends to talk about their relationship in their blogs. I'll be so mad if i was them! It's my god-given rights and I shall fully utilize it. Imagine how restained those relationships will be if I can't even blog about whatever I want. Grr.

And don't get me started on boyfriends who don't allow their girlfriends to wear whatever they want. Fuck off lah you think you're my father ah now. And when we say you can't play computer games or go cybercafe then cannottt, cause we'll be too controlling then. Why are women always always the victim.

Fuck off you men *suddenly sour wtf

So where was I! Oh yes back to my boyfriend coming back in 20 days. Remember what I said about how the first kiss and the first time he held my hand after he came back felt so much like the first all over again? And i've been thinking about that a lot lately.

*dreamy sigh again

God long distance sure is hard. From reading my blog, it may sound like a breeze cause you don't hear me complaining about it much. But it truly is killing me every single day. I wake up every morning thinking whether if today will be our last day together, if today I'll lose interest and ask for a break, if today I might find someone else, if today we might have a big argument.

Whenever we do argue, I try not to blog about it because I know all that anger and hatred i have for him is temporary and if I put them down in words, they'll be permanently etched. And I hate the idea of people reading it and somehow get false impression on him. Obviously, whatever I write will be on my side and everyone will hate him in return.

And after like a few hours, the anger will subside and we'll patch and make up but the angry entry i wrote will still be there. Wouldn't it be terribly awkward then? i'll feel so so stupid but the last thing i'll ever do is to delete an entry from my blog. If i feel like that entry will offend someone and if i will remove it later, i shouldn't have published it to the public's eye in the first place, should i?

Shit. Where the hell was i?

right. boyfriend. back. in. 20. days. woot!
I already planned what to wear and all that when I go get him from the airport. In fact I even planned what I'll do! Sorry lah but I really have nothing to do these days. So I'm gonna jump up to him, like how he wants me to do it all the time. But a little embarrassing lah, imagine doing this whole Bollywood thingy, running to your dearest while shouting his name at the same time jiggling your boobs and then leap into his waiting arms?

euk.

But for the sake of him loving me more, I shall do it! babe if you're reading this, no i'm just lying, i obviously won't do something like that.

great i don't know what to write anymore. I suck at proclaiming my undying love to someone i love.

Sometimes when I think of how I suffer to keep this relationship alive when we're a million miles apart, I get really depressed. But then I'll think of all the things we'll do when he comes home and I'll cheer up in no time. Seriously, nothing beats being apart for 4 months and reunite again! All that longing and pent up passion could seriously kill an elephant.

So if you want to know the secret of how my ldr works, it's this. We both just keep cheering ourselves up by telling each other things we want to do together, things we shall eat and stuff like that.

And i keep thinking of how we can have 3 months of honeymoon together before we fly to the states, together! I'll be staying with him for a week or so before I fly off to start my college. We won't be staying together (massachusetts and indiana are 12 hours apart

) but we will visit each other during spring breaks and all.

So it'll be fun =D

OH have I told you that he's in a men's college and i'm going to a women's college? How wicked.

This entry is anything but emotional, doesn't even deserve its title but what the heck.

I really can't wait to start college in a brand new place. I know I might not enjoy my life there but that beats bumming like shit over here. I know I'll regret saying this but I'm suffering like crazy now! All I do every single day is sleep in, watch tv, surf mindlessly and eat. I swear my butt is so much flatter from all that sitting and bumming.

I wish I'm not so lazy. There are a million and one things I can do. I could clean the house (RIIIGHT), I could learn something new (other than my mandarin classes. i really want to learn how to cook, and sew, and speak french, or learn how to dance! god how i suck at dancing), I could do charity! or learn a new sport (definitely gonna learn horse-riding in college, they have a huge equestrian center!).

There are so many things I can opt to do but guess what? I'm too lazy to =(

Shit let's all move back to my point of entry.

So as I was saying, he'll be back in 20 days. hooray!

the end.

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I was reading this book about how this guy had a perfect life; loving wife, adorable son, great job- until he had a one night stand and his wife found out. Naturally, she left him and he had to learn to live without her that kinda thing.

After a few pages and a lot of yadda yaddas, he kissed another girl. He fucking kissed another girl.

That's it, I'm so going to stop reading. I've never not finish reading a book in my life before. No matter how bad a book is, I always tell myself that I have to finish it. Because I always feel that every writer has a good story to tell and it'll be a shame if I don't at least find out where that climax is.

But this kinda story? I can't do it.

Posted at 7:07:27 pm by expectation
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4/16/2007

Hello There

The angel from my nightmare

wtf

the shadow in the background of the morgue

wtf wtf

I don't know why I remember the lyrics of a song I don't even know its title and singer.

So anywayyyy, fuuuuh! Another work's over and done with! Been such a hectic week. And of course, it beats having nothing to do at all. The job was alright, with a few hiccups here and there. I wanted to complain and blog about my frustrations but everytime I come back, I was so tired I'd just sleep off those anger. My colleagues are all very nice so it was kinda fun to work with them.

Interesting things that happened:

I went to the toilet for an awfully long time (15 mins) and when I came back, my supervisor started questioning me.

Super: Oi why you go toilet so long!
Me: WHAT? I didn't know my toilet time is restrained. I had to take care of a HUGE business. The huge-est you'd have ever seen. The clients didn't show up for the past 3 days so it was quite hard to convince them to come. And they were all so black and colossal (wtf i don't know why i used this word. maybe cause i just learned it wtf, it means big)
(doesn't sound funny here but imagine me waving my arms about excitedly and gesturing to him how big my 'client' was and my eyes going big and small in glee)
Super: wtf you talking about?!
Me: I need to shit. Have been constipating for the past 3 days. Shit was huge and black.
Super: OKOK skip the details. get back to work! =.=

I can find a million excuses to stop him from questioning me too much, heh.

My period came on the third day and the cramps were out in full force.

Me: can I take five for a while, my uterus feels like dropping out!!!1
Super: WTF OKOK FASTER GO! *panics

And everytime after that, he kept asking whether my uterus will drop or not and asked me to rest. He'd hold out one finger and swing it to indicate a uterus hanging on a thread wtf.

And of course, everyone likes to pat me on the head, AGAIN. I'm 19 this year ok! I'm not cute and chubby and pinch-able ok! Grr.

I'm also labelled as the anti social person cause I prefered to be alone during my breaks. Yalah work so hard, of course I'd like to have a peaceful alone time for my break right! I'd like to just eat really fast, go somewhere quiet and read while listening to my Ipod.

But nooo, that's what anti socialites do so in order to not be a recluse, I must eat together-gether with everyone.
I just find it really tiring to talk and entertain people when I'm not in the mood. =(

So basically those are the only interesting things that happened. Alberto mondo visited me and took some pics!

I remember this guy! He was kinda rude =S

I'm shy wtf

With Alberto.

Totally living up to my camwhore status, said Wai Fon who came with Albert. this is my sony ericsson phone! My friend Fitri exchanged his phone with mine for 2 months o.0
Now I not only have a camera phone, a colour screen but polyphonic ringtones and media player too! =D

The fish eye lense thingy! haha

Thanks alberto and waifon for visiting!

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I cooked pasta for lunch.

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I love being random.

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Sometimes all I want to do is roll around on a very grassy hill and just roll off the cliff. Then I somehow end up on the hill again and i roll down the cliff again. and again. and again. at the same time, I'll marvel at the picturesque scenery.

Somewhere like this

or this (minus the rocks. those are gonna kill me)

Yeap I'm certain that's what I wanna do all day.

It's weird how people say that I'm a social butterfly but sometimes, I really prefer to be alone. Like how I really prefer to roll off that cliff alone because adding another person there rolling with me will totally spoil the picture.

I don't know about you but I like seeing one person rolling off the cliff than two.

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I just finished rereading catcher in the rye and I finally found out the real reason why I love the book so much. The main character, Holden, is so so random. I tried finding an example to quote here but I guess you can't relate to a quote as much as reading the book yourself.

Don't you sometimes feel like rolling on a hill and off a cliff, again and again? until you get so dizzy but you just can't place yourself anywhere but on that damned grassy hill?

Posted at 4:34:08 pm by expectation
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4/10/2007

Busy woman again!

So sorry I won't blog for some time. I have to work again from 10am till 10pm at Midvalley for 5 days straight! T___T Why am I working so hard huhu.

If you happen to go MV do come and visit me alright. Will be at center court's concourse, working under Maxis. See ya!

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shit i can't think of anything interesting to blog about so here ends my post =(

nooo i can do it. wait let me think harder! Erm, today I went to the Maxis training and learnt how to make coffee wtf. It's true it's true I don't know how to make a cup of coffee even. I don't drink coffee unless I really have to (in my whole life only 4 times)

So before the training, in front of 12 pair of eyes, I made my first cup of coffee! Usually at home, I have those 3 in 1 thingy so all I had to do was pour the thing in, add hot water and stir. But now everything looked so complicated! Erm creamer? sugar? how much to put!

So I had to embarrass myself by asking those questions aloud and 12 pairs of eyes stared at me in disbelieve. And I had to embarrass myself more by asking this.

"Why is my coffee black?! Isn't it supposed to be..brown?"

omg I'm so stupid I feel like slapping myself. They said I forgot the creamer =.=

In the end my coffee was too sweet so I had to secretly pour it away anyway =(
but the cleaner lady caught me red-handed in the act and said she'd do it for me wtf.

The other day I went for this job interview with a prestigious company. They asked me about my SPM results and I said I got straight As. They laughed and said I don't look like the type at all am I sure I got the facts right wtf HOW CAN THEY ASK SUCH THINGS OF COURSE I'M SURE LA MY SPM RESULTS WHAT WTF.

They said it was because I had my nails painted black and I don't look smart.

dot dot dot discriminating sial cool people can't be smart ah wtf. But i guess looking stupid but is actually smart trumps looking smart but actually is stupid anytime no?

And I got the job out of so many people so I guess I'm fine with them saying i look stupid wtf.

okay that's all i need my beauty sleep now.

Posted at 11:12:50 pm by expectation
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4/8/2007

My First Rave and A Tag

Yesterday I went to my first rave ever! Believe it or not, I've never clubbed before in my whole life and have never been to a party that has more than 20 people. (contrary to what people said, that I have a clubber look

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I didn't want to go at first but I thought since I've got free tickets, and since my friends wanted to go and since they can only go if I go since the tickets are under my name, so what the heck lah there is a first for everything right!

And OMG there were so many peopleeee! And the music was so loud! Like terribly loud until I'm still partially deaf now, 20 hours later. And I was wondering out loud to my friends on why half of the people I saw were wearing shades when it was so dark outside! When I got inside, I found out why they were wearing shades.
The light was so blinding! =.=

White, red, green, blue whatever colour also got lah. Kept blinking until I had to cover my eyes the whole time. And the place was so packed! So hard to move about when you're sandwiched between sweaty bodies.

=( I'm such a party pooper. People must hate me all the time.

But anyway I did dance okay! After loads of persuasion from Esther. My first time dancing *proud wtf
Damn kayu but what the hell lah since the lights were blinking so it made people who can't dance seemed like they can anyway.

wah so many people! I need air!

Four of us, kaze, andy, me and tanned esther!

Outside for a breather

Holy Jesus I know the guy behind me!!! He's my long lost classmate!!! Hello Joshua!!!!
Ok I was feng tao-ing here wtf

Some DJ named Yoji or something lah. Apparently he's Jap?

The purpose of this pic is to show you the guy beside me. He's the security guy and had to stand like that throughout the whole rave. (and yes lah I like to feng tao wtf)

What in the world am I doing here *innocent eyes
(thanks jo for photoshopping my pimple away again hoho should've asked her to add a cleavage. is that even possible?)

Anyway I don't know if I enjoyed the loud music and blinding lights that much but I certainly cannot see myself doing this every week/ month. Maybe once a year? But it's a good experience! At least I know how the nightlife here is before I leave!

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Since I'm bored to death, here's a tag from jiameei.

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Liew Suet Li
Birth Date: 24 Sept 1988
Current status: Married wtf. Double wtf.
Eye Colour: If I see in the mirror, they're black but when people see my eyes they say they're brown! How come!
Hair Colour: Currently it's a nice shade of brown with some dark brown regrowth.
Righty or Lefty: Righty

Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Heritage: Half-banana wtf
Your Fears: Be a failure and to be alone in this dark scary worldddd
Your Weakness: Where should I start? Laziness. Super vain. procrastinate way too much. Do you know how lazy I am? So lazy that I don't like to drink water cause I'm far too lazy to pee. This is beyond critical.
Your Perfect Pizza: I eat everything

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: FOOD DUH WHAT KINDA QUESTION IS THIS
Your Bedtime: now? 2/3 am. when I'm working, 12pm.
Your Most Missed Memory: When I was young and didn't have to care about being fat and can eat all the food in the world!!! =D

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: 100 plus forever and ever till the end of time
McDonald's or Burger King: BK cause their fries when squeezed produce white oil, not yellow/brown.
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Doesn't matter
Tea or Nestea: both!
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla!
Cappucino or Coffee: my nose bleeds when I drink coffee/caffeinated drinks T___T

Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: No
Curse: Sometimes
Take a shower: NOT MORE THAN 2 TIMES A DAY -my policy wtf
Have a crush: on food! hell yeah I'm a food addict wtf shit I talked about food in this whole tag!
Think you've been in love: yeahhh *dreamy eyes
Go to school: Yes
Want to get married: Yeap sure. I want 3 kids. (Louva, Mikayla, Micah if it's a guy, Desiree sounds nice but i think she'll turn into a snobby bitchy kid wor how! dilemma dilemma wtf)
Believe in yourself: Most of the time
Think you're a health freak: No not really. Oh noes what should I do I don't wanna die young!

Layer Six: In The Past Month
Drank alcohol: Nopes
Gone to the mall: Yes
Been on stage: hurm. no
Eaten sushi: NO OMG I'M SO DEPRIVED AND WHY AM I TYPING IN CAPS BECAUSE I'M SO EXCITED AT THE THOUGHT OF EATING SUSHI AGAIN <3 when Barry returns <3
Dyed your hair: Yes but didn't redye in the past month

Layer Seven: Have You Ever...
Played A Stripping Game: Yeah!
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Yeah I think I did.

Layer Eight: Age You're Hoping
To Be Married: Before I'm 30 I hope

Layer Nine: In a ~~Girl~~/Guy
Best Eye Colour: Brown
Best Hair Colour: Not fussy but brown is nice *hint hint
Short Hair or Long Hair: As long as it looks nice lah where got people prefer guys with specifically long or short hair one! What if this guy looks damn hot in short hair but not long but you only like long-haired guy then how!

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago: Eating baked beans with egg <3
1 Hour Ago: Cooking baked beans with egg <3
4.5 Hours Ago: Thinking about cooking baked beans with egg <3
1 Month Ago: working my ass off
1 Year Ago: seriously bumming and spending every second with my boyfriend

Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love: to eat. I LOVE FOOD I LIVE TO EAT 'nuff said
I Feel: lazyyyy
I Hate: it when I want to eat but I can't cause I'm too fat already =(
I Hide: my sister in the closet when my friends come haahaha cause she likes to sing and her voice sucks hahahaa i'm such a cool sister hahaha
I Miss: BARRY OOI EU HOCK along with all the food we used to eat together
I Need: more money and 5 inches taller and no tummy

Layer Twelve: Tag Five People
-Pang Tze Ching but i have a feeling that she won't do this
-Suet cause I want to know the other suet!
-Linsey cause you intro-ed nuffnang to me haha
-Clem cause I'm still mad at you for ditching me for dotA =(
-Aud cause later you scold me for leaving you out wtf and cause i was sooo happy when you tagged me that time long ago before we became best friends.

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GREAT another dilemma. Milo, Patrick OR Wentworth Miller? (michael in prison break)
so many guys, so little time wtf.

Posted at 5:03:47 pm by expectation
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4/5/2007

And She Got Lucky Again

It was prolly 10 in the morning when I received a call from an unfamiliar number. I was (obviously) still asleep since you know, I don't have classes or work to go to *gloat gloat*. So I groggily answered and the person identified himself as Timothy Tiah.

In case you don't know who Tim is, he's the founder of nuffnang.com.my. Okay I don't really know how to explain what Nuffnang is but it's basically a portal for bloggers to earn moolah! Everyone loves moolah don't they! Well I certainly do, which was why I joined in the first place.

Many thanks to my faithful reader, Linsey for introducing this to me. The best thing is, you only need at least 20 hits a day to join! Once you join, you'll have one draw for the lucky draw every month. Plus, you don't need to pay or do ANYTHING. They'll find advertisers for you and all that! See my Perak Hotel in my side bar? Yeah that is from Nuffnang. (btw did you know the hotel is in Spore? hmm..)

Okay anyway I'm not here to give nuffnang more publicity, cause it's not really my policy to write stuff like that. I'm here to tell you that last month they had a lucky draw to win something.

And guess who the lucky bitch is.

I KNOW!!!11onee I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT SO LUCKY TOO!

Anyway that was why Tim called. He said they drew the lots and chose a number and that person is MEEEEEEEEE! Me, LIEW SUET LI, who has never won anything more than a pencil in my standard 5 class party's lucky draw before wtf, actually won something HUGE!

And that prize is..okay it has one, two,three, ok FOUR letters. It starts with an I and ends with a D.

I _ _ D

OMG i wonder what that is..hmm so hard to guess! Could it be an.. IHOD? or an..IMID?

Hmm..OR COULD IT BE AN...

INOD?

wtf it's an IPOD!!!!! Ipod Nano to be precise =D

The boyfriend was telling me how he got his Nano really cheap and how he can't wait to show it off to me so when I found out that I won a Nano, I texted him immediately to gloat.

After Tim gave me the Ipod (on that day itself!), I immediately ripped the box open to unravel the beauty inside. Ah, my first ever cool gadget. Now who dares to call me not cool enough!

Allow me to camwhore with my NEW IPOD please.

I didn't know what to name her at first. My NEW IPOD? My Precioussss? But I finally settled on Louva, because that'll be the name of my first daughter. Louva is kinda in Swedish, it's how Love will be pronounced but the word itself doesn't exist.

It feels so good in my hand, like it really does belong here. Its sleek contours make my fingers tingle in warmth and excitement. Everytime I play my songs, I get a very different feeling from playing with any other MP3 player. I feel so..what's the word? so..detached.
Like I'm in my own world where no one can disturb me as long as I have my earphones on.

And I really love its sensitive touchpad thingy. i like it when i roll around searching for songs =D
bah i suck at describing things.

I was in the train today and was listening to my Ipod of course. I don't know how to describe the feeling of listening to Guns n Roses' Sweet Child of Mine amidst all the silence of the crowd but I guess it's a feeling you'll only get if you are listening it yourself.
When I took off my earphones, the place suddenly grew so dead, so very quiet and awfully placid.

I've never ever been a noisy person. I love ballads, I love slow songs and detest rock songs to death. But amazingly, I like listening to rock songs in my Ipod, especially when I'm running or on the go. It makes me feel rejuvenated, so full of energy.

I'm totally rockin' it yo!

My friends and I were so bored today that we had to play this game where someone name a song and the other person will continue from the last letter of the song to name another song. I whipped out my Ipod and instantly won the game (unfairly).
Ah, what would life be without my Ipod. haha wtf

As you can see, I have a huge pimple on my right nose but Jolene Lai Pei Shan, the goddess of all photoshoppers, helped me photoshop it away! OMG can photoshop really do that?!?! It's a MIRACLE! What's next? It can help make your nose sharper? Eyes bigger? Add cleavage??
The wonders of technology.

I look very fugly here i know no make up nothing ok.

Okay so here ends my lucky post you can all go kill yourself and hope you're me in your next life wtf.
Nolah everyone go join nuffnang and you might win the next lucky draw prize! A PSP WOOT i'm not excited about it cause I don't want a PSP anyway!

Damn poser here >.< But I'm a camwhore ok!

If you want to help me get the PSP (since my luck damn good these days), do email me so I can invite you into Nuffnang. That way, I get one extra lot for this month and you'll only get your lot next month. Each person can only have one lot unless they invite other people!

So I've already got my Ipod. Where's yours? =D

P.S: Many thanks to Nuffnang again!

Posted at 9:14:31 pm by expectation
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