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Yesterday I went to my first rave ever! Believe it or not, I've never clubbed before in my whole life and have never been to a party that has more than 20 people. (contrary to what people said, that I have a clubber look  )
I didn't want to go at first but I thought since I've got free tickets, and since my friends wanted to go and since they can only go if I go since the tickets are under my name, so what the heck lah there is a first for everything right!
And OMG there were so many peopleeee! And the music was so loud! Like terribly loud until I'm still partially deaf now, 20 hours later. And I was wondering out loud to my friends on why half of the people I saw were wearing shades when it was so dark outside! When I got inside, I found out why they were wearing shades.
The light was so blinding! =.=
White, red, green, blue whatever colour also got lah. Kept blinking until I had to cover my eyes the whole time. And the place was so packed! So hard to move about when you're sandwiched between sweaty bodies.
=( I'm such a party pooper. People must hate me all the time.
But anyway I did dance okay! After loads of persuasion from Esther. My first time dancing *proud wtf
Damn kayu but what the hell lah since the lights were blinking so it made people who can't dance seemed like they can anyway.
wah so many people! I need air!
Four of us, kaze, andy, me and tanned esther!
Outside for a breather
Holy Jesus I know the guy behind me!!! He's my long lost classmate!!! Hello Joshua!!!!
Ok I was feng tao-ing here wtf
Some DJ named Yoji or something lah. Apparently he's Jap?
The purpose of this pic is to show you the guy beside me. He's the security guy and had to stand like that throughout the whole rave. (and yes lah I like to feng tao wtf)
What in the world am I doing here *innocent eyes
(thanks jo for photoshopping my pimple away again hoho should've asked her to add a cleavage. is that even possible?)
Anyway I don't know if I enjoyed the loud music and blinding lights that much but I certainly cannot see myself doing this every week/ month. Maybe once a year? But it's a good experience! At least I know how the nightlife here is before I leave!
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Since I'm bored to death, here's a tag from jiameei.
Layer One: On The OutsideName: Liew Suet LiBirth Date: 24 Sept 1988Current status: Married wtf. Double wtf. Eye Colour: If I see in the mirror, they're black but when people see my eyes they say they're brown! How come!Hair Colour: Currently it's a nice shade of brown with some dark brown regrowth. Righty or Lefty: RightyLayer Two: On The InsideYour Heritage: Half-banana wtf Your Fears: Be a failure and to be alone in this dark scary worlddddYour Weakness: Where should I start? Laziness. Super vain. procrastinate way too much. Do you know how lazy I am? So lazy that I don't like to drink water cause I'm far too lazy to pee. This is beyond critical.Your Perfect Pizza: I eat everythingLayer Three: Yesterday, Today, TomorrowYour Thoughts First Waking Up: FOOD DUH WHAT KINDA QUESTION IS THISYour Bedtime: now? 2/3 am. when I'm working, 12pm. Your Most Missed Memory: When I was young and didn't have to care about being fat and can eat all the food in the world!!! =DLayer Four: Your PickPepsi or Coke: 100 plus forever and ever till the end of timeMcDonald's or Burger King: BK cause their fries when squeezed produce white oil, not yellow/brown. Single or Group Dates: SingleAdidas or Nike: Doesn't matterTea or Nestea: both!Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla!Cappucino or Coffee: my nose bleeds when I drink coffee/caffeinated drinks T___TLayer Five: Do You...Smoke: NoCurse: SometimesTake a shower: NOT MORE THAN 2 TIMES A DAY -my policy wtfHave a crush: on food! hell yeah I'm a food addict wtf shit I talked about food in this whole tag!Think you've been in love: yeahhh *dreamy eyesGo to school: YesWant to get married: Yeap sure. I want 3 kids. (Louva, Mikayla, Micah if it's a guy, Desiree sounds nice but i think she'll turn into a snobby bitchy kid wor how! dilemma dilemma wtf)Believe in yourself: Most of the timeThink you're a health freak: No not really. Oh noes what should I do I don't wanna die young! Layer Six: In The Past MonthDrank alcohol: NopesGone to the mall: YesBeen on stage: hurm. noEaten sushi: NO OMG I'M SO DEPRIVED AND WHY AM I TYPING IN CAPS BECAUSE I'M SO EXCITED AT THE THOUGHT OF EATING SUSHI AGAIN <3 when Barry returns <3Dyed your hair: Yes but didn't redye in the past monthLayer Seven: Have You Ever...Played A Stripping Game: Yeah! Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Yeah I think I did.Layer Eight: Age You're HopingTo Be Married: Before I'm 30 I hopeLayer Nine: In a Girl/GuyBest Eye Colour: BrownBest Hair Colour: Not fussy but brown is nice *hint hintShort Hair or Long Hair: As long as it looks nice lah where got people prefer guys with specifically long or short hair one! What if this guy looks damn hot in short hair but not long but you only like long-haired guy then how!Layer Ten: What Were You Doing1 Min Ago: Eating baked beans with egg <31 Hour Ago: Cooking baked beans with egg <34.5 Hours Ago: Thinking about cooking baked beans with egg <31 Month Ago: working my ass off1 Year Ago: seriously bumming and spending every second with my boyfriendLayer Eleven: Finish The SentenceI Love: to eat. I LOVE FOOD I LIVE TO EAT 'nuff saidI Feel: lazyyyyI Hate: it when I want to eat but I can't cause I'm too fat already =(I Hide: my sister in the closet when my friends come haahaha cause she likes to sing and her voice sucks hahahaa i'm such a cool sister hahahaI Miss: BARRY OOI EU HOCK along with all the food we used to eat together I Need: more money and 5 inches taller and no tummy Layer Twelve: Tag Five People-Pang Tze Ching but i have a feeling that she won't do this
-Suet cause I want to know the other suet!
-Linsey cause you intro-ed nuffnang to me haha
-Clem cause I'm still mad at you for ditching me for dotA =(
-Aud cause later you scold me for leaving you out wtf and cause i was sooo happy when you tagged me that time long ago before we became best friends.
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GREAT another dilemma. Milo, Patrick OR Wentworth Miller? (michael in prison break)
so many guys, so little time wtf.
Posted at 5:03:47 pm by expectation
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It was prolly 10 in the morning when I received a call from an unfamiliar number. I was (obviously) still asleep since you know, I don't have classes or work to go to *gloat gloat*. So I groggily answered and the person identified himself as Timothy Tiah.
In case you don't know who Tim is, he's the founder of nuffnang.com.my. Okay I don't really know how to explain what Nuffnang is but it's basically a portal for bloggers to earn moolah! Everyone loves moolah don't they! Well I certainly do, which was why I joined in the first place.
Many thanks to my faithful reader, Linsey for introducing this to me. The best thing is, you only need at least 20 hits a day to join! Once you join, you'll have one draw for the lucky draw every month. Plus, you don't need to pay or do ANYTHING. They'll find advertisers for you and all that! See my Perak Hotel in my side bar? Yeah that is from Nuffnang. (btw did you know the hotel is in Spore? hmm..)
Okay anyway I'm not here to give nuffnang more publicity, cause it's not really my policy to write stuff like that. I'm here to tell you that last month they had a lucky draw to win something.
And guess who the lucky bitch is.
I KNOW!!!11onee I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT SO LUCKY TOO!
Anyway that was why Tim called. He said they drew the lots and chose a number and that person is MEEEEEEEEE! Me, LIEW SUET LI, who has never won anything more than a pencil in my standard 5 class party's lucky draw before wtf, actually won something HUGE!
And that prize is..okay it has one, two,three, ok FOUR letters. It starts with an I and ends with a D.
I _ _ D
OMG i wonder what that is..hmm so hard to guess! Could it be an.. IHOD? or an..IMID?
Hmm..OR COULD IT BE AN...
INOD?
wtf it's an IPOD!!!!! Ipod Nano to be precise =D
The boyfriend was telling me how he got his Nano really cheap and how he can't wait to show it off to me so when I found out that I won a Nano, I texted him immediately to gloat.
After Tim gave me the Ipod (on that day itself!), I immediately ripped the box open to unravel the beauty inside. Ah, my first ever cool gadget. Now who dares to call me not cool enough!
Allow me to camwhore with my NEW IPOD please.
I didn't know what to name her at first. My NEW IPOD? My Precioussss? But I finally settled on Louva, because that'll be the name of my first daughter. Louva is kinda in Swedish, it's how Love will be pronounced but the word itself doesn't exist.
It feels so good in my hand, like it really does belong here. Its sleek contours make my fingers tingle in warmth and excitement. Everytime I play my songs, I get a very different feeling from playing with any other MP3 player. I feel so..what's the word? so..detached.
Like I'm in my own world where no one can disturb me as long as I have my earphones on.
And I really love its sensitive touchpad thingy. i like it when i roll around searching for songs =D
bah i suck at describing things.
I was in the train today and was listening to my Ipod of course. I don't know how to describe the feeling of listening to Guns n Roses' Sweet Child of Mine amidst all the silence of the crowd but I guess it's a feeling you'll only get if you are listening it yourself.
When I took off my earphones, the place suddenly grew so dead, so very quiet and awfully placid.
I've never ever been a noisy person. I love ballads, I love slow songs and detest rock songs to death. But amazingly, I like listening to rock songs in my Ipod, especially when I'm running or on the go. It makes me feel rejuvenated, so full of energy.
I'm totally rockin' it yo!
My friends and I were so bored today that we had to play this game where someone name a song and the other person will continue from the last letter of the song to name another song. I whipped out my Ipod and instantly won the game (unfairly).
Ah, what would life be without my Ipod. haha wtf
As you can see, I have a huge pimple on my right nose but Jolene Lai Pei Shan, the goddess of all photoshoppers, helped me photoshop it away! OMG can photoshop really do that?!?! It's a MIRACLE! What's next? It can help make your nose sharper? Eyes bigger? Add cleavage??
The wonders of technology.
I look very fugly here i know no make up nothing ok.
Okay so here ends my lucky post you can all go kill yourself and hope you're me in your next life wtf.
Nolah everyone go join nuffnang and you might win the next lucky draw prize! A PSP WOOT i'm not excited about it cause I don't want a PSP anyway!
Damn poser here >.< But I'm a camwhore ok!
If you want to help me get the PSP (since my luck damn good these days), do email me so I can invite you into Nuffnang. That way, I get one extra lot for this month and you'll only get your lot next month. Each person can only have one lot unless they invite other people!
So I've already got my Ipod. Where's yours? =D
P.S: Many thanks to Nuffnang again!
Posted at 9:14:31 pm by expectation
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I went shopping yesterday! And I mean SERIOUSLY shopping.
I bought 17 tops and 3 sweaters 0.o
17 of the same top but all in different colours and maybe a little different in design 0.o
These are only some of them.
All from Aeropostale, an American brand.
And you'd never believe how much I spent.
I'm not trying to be humble but I seriously look like shit here. I bought two of this, one grey and one white.
In serious need to lose some weight. I bought 10 of this top, all different colours. Because the material is really thin, I bought a few same ones. So if it tears, i can throw away and have another spare one waiting for me! =D
It took me 2 hours to find a sweater my size.
Faster guess! Okay think of the amount in your head and see if you get correct or not wtf. I'll tell at the end of this post.
Happy but ugly Suet
Went swimming so I was wearing my new bikini! Super cheap RM45 only okay! From Triumph. I'm a sucker for cheap stuff.
Cause Barry said I look different and weird here =(
Oh yeah for people who don't believe I have a tummy, here's a pictorial evidence. I didn't edit anything at all.
Btw, the skirt is RM10 from Summit. Hoho but I don't wear it also. See! Now you believe me when I say my tummy is protruding and looks weird?
SOOOO ready to hear how much all my stuff are? ALL my 17 tops and 3 sweaters?!
OKAY it's JENG JENG JENG...
RM 27.20
Seriously I'm not pulling your leg! I bought them from a warehouse in Summit. They sell the clothes by weight, 100g for RM1.
Hohoho I'm so so so contented with my clothes! It's like how much I'll spend for a top but i bought 20 times the amount, plus THREE sweaters okay.
P.S: I went again today and bought more stuff =( It's uncontrollable! They don't have the nice tops I bought anymore (cause I think me, my sis and our friends bought everything.)
But there are loads more sweaters, most are L-sized so you gotta dig harder for S-sized ones. I dug for 2 hours again T___T
I should make digging my proffession wtf. (since i like digging my nose too hmm)
*HAPPY
Now I'm all prepared to brace the cold in US!
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I just finished watching Heroes! Why would they wanna make us wait till April 23rd for the new season?!! I can't waittt.
EDIT: EH EH I FORGOT TO MENTION! the pair of shorts i was wearing is from WH and is only ....RM...19.
Yeap from RM69 and now it's only RM19! and i bought a pair of miniskirt at that price too! =D
Posted at 7:52:33 pm by expectation
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Things I Wish I Can Do In Life I just got fired. Boohoo, yes from my BEST job ever =(
Actually no, I didn't get fired but they said they don't need us to do this anymore. I think they know this job is rather too easy and the pay is a tad too much. =((( boohoooo.
I'm really sad not cause of the easy money I'd earn but because I've already planned my day-to-day outfit! I haven't even shown my entire wardrobe yet! On Sunday, we planned to wear jerseys to work! And I wanted to wear my nice kimono top on Monday!
Great. Now I'd just have to wear them at home =(
Great. Now I'm back to being a super couch potato since my friend borrowed me the entire season 1 of Prison Break.
La li da.
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I was thinking of the things I wish i can do in life and I came up with these two:
1. To be able to sleep whenever I want
2. To be able to shit whenever I want
I really hate it when I badly need to sleep and I just can't! Have you ever get that too? Like you know you have to wake up early and you badly need your 8 hours of sleep regime but try as you might, you just can't zonk out?
I really hate that.
Remember I once talked about how I have those dreams when I was still awake as an indicator of whether I might fall asleep soon or not? Like before I fall asleep and my mind is thinking about something and then I couldn't remember what I thought of a second later because they're all jumbled up? Like dreams when you are awake?
Yeah so I tried to cheat my own mind into doing that. Like I'll think of something and a second later I'll tell myself that "aiyah what I thought of ya? Aiyah cannot remember already!" and pray that my mind will somehow think that it's time for bed and I might fall asleep soon.
Bah no such luck.
And the worst thing is, the harder I try, the more awake I get! Irony rules this world man.
My friend told me that in order to fall asleep, you must empty your mind. Emptyyy your mindddd.
How the hell do you do that??
I tried and failed miserably. I tried thinking of a black space. black space. black space. And I have no idea how but I suddenly thought of myself doing chicken dance in that black space! And the worst part is I don't even know how to do chicken dance in real life!!
T____T
Okay let's move on to my next wish. I wish I can shit whenever I want. period.
I hate sitting on the toilet bowl and try to force myself to shit. It's like when I'm busy doing something else, I get that terrible urge but when I sit on that throne, it refuses to come out! Why got so stubborn shit one!
So I usually tell myself that okay it if still doesn't come out by the time I reach the end of this page (I MUST read when I shit), that's it I'm getting up. And when I reach the end of that page, the shit feels like coming out but when I flip the page, it goes back in!!!!!11
Zomg in retrospect that does sound kinda disgusting.
Sigh if only I have some supernatural power like in Heroes. My power would be! whenever I wish I want to do something, I get to do it.
Like if I say, I wish I can sleep! And I sleep immediately. I wish I can drive! and I can drive. I wish I can get there in 2 mins! And poof I'm there in 2 mins. I wish I'm prettier and I'm prettier!
I wish I can eat and not get fat! and i eat and not get fat.
Haha doesn't make much sense but what the hell.
Oh and I'm starting my Mandarin class this week! I can't wait to be un-banana again! (i used to be able to speak and read and write when I was young. I guess it's an ability that wears off with age, especially if you don't practise it much)
Pardon me while I continue watching Heroes.
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Oh here's Frus and I.
Thanks for visiting me during my Maxis job and belanja-ing!
Cause Frus said I only look thin cause I have my hair to cover my face. Nah so here's a pic without my hair and fringe and if i puff up! fat or not!
And here's a picture with Nicholas/ Kuzco.
I love readers who say hi and camwhore along with me! =D
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P.S: Happy April Fools' Day everyone! One word of caution, never try out ANY pregnancy jokes T________T
Honey, I think I'm pregnant! HAHAHA April Fools'!
... *slap slap*
Posted at 1:14:57 am by expectation
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I'm bored stiff at home so let me just talk nonsense okay? I've been watching episodes of Heroes and Grey's Anatomy until I can practically recite lines in my sleep, which is really bad. Call this a..tvshows-freak syndrome.
So..my biggest fear. Up until now, my biggest fear in life has gotta be this: failure. I remember back when I was 12 and I was playing spin the bottle with my friends in some party. I told myself that if it's my turn, I'm so going to chose Dare and pray that someone dares me to kiss my crush. Yeap, it was my turn. Yeap, I chose Dare. And yeap, someone indeed did dare me to kiss my crush. Only that I didn't, because HE chickened out and said eww at me.
That has gotta be one of the most humiliating thing that had ever happened to me.
So what does all that have to do with my fear of being a failure anyway? Erm, cause the next round, I chose Truth instead and someone asked me what my biggest fear is. Everyone obviously expected something like me saying that my crush will reject me, or that my biggest fear is the dark, boogeyman blahblah since I was only 12. But I said, very loud and clear, that my biggest fear is being a failure.
Everyone kept quiet for a bit and then continued spinning the bottle, as if I didn't say a thing.
So I guess I already knew, 7 years ago, that my biggest fear is to be a failure. I guess that's why I kept throwing heaps of expectations onto myself, for fear that I might succumb to what I fear the most.
I wake up every single day and ask myself this, will I fail today? Will I fail someone or myself today? That really stressed me up. Imagine living a life like mine, where you have to live up to your own expectations every single second.
You know what? Frankly, that really sucks. I get upset at the tiniest bit of things even. I didn't want to talk about this at first but since I'm already opening up a bit to people I don't know who are reading this, I might as well continue.
Because of this fear of being a failure, I kept having this nagging feeling that everyone doesn't like me. I have this whole pent-up tension amassed in me that I have to do better than this. I have to make people like me. I have to do this, I have to do that. When I meet new people, something inside me will instruct me on what to do and say and I get so terribly paranoid when people show the tiniest bit of disinterest in me. I'll keep thinking of what I did wrong and at the end of the day, I'll blame myself for everything.
So that really sucks. You know, having your own self eating you from the inside like that. Someone once told me that the deadliest foe of all is yourself. How true indeed, how true.
Sigh. Come to think of it, I just happened to remember that there's this other fear that I have. I'm really afraid of being alone. Not just alone as in physically alone, that I can handle. But the emotionally alone part. Sometimes it really scares me a lot that all I have in this big world is no one but myself. It scares me that people I love cannot stick by me forever, that I someday have to venture out to this vast space by myself, with noone guiding me along.
In fact, the thought of me leaving all this comfort behind is starting to freak me out already. I used to think that I'm independent, that I can live by myself pretty fine thank you. But then again, being independent doesn't really mean whether you're capable to live by yourself or not. Independence is whether you can stand back up when you fall without having someone to watch your back all the time. And I think I can't do that. I'm only 19! But 19 is pretty old. I can't necessarily expect people to watch my back all the time, not even my dear boyfriend can do that.
I guess that's something I have to learn.
And I don't want to live life like this. Live my life as if I'm running where I'll look at the tree ahead and tell myself that I HAVE to run till I reach that tree in order to lose weight and when I do reach that tree, I stop and heave a big sigh of relief.
No, I don't want my life to be like that. I don't want to live because I HAVE to go on, but because I want to go on.
Heck this doesn't seem relevant at all and I don't think I even understand what I just said but it does sound good..
I'm ending this entry hanging and open-ended like this, because it's exactly what I'm feeling now; uncertain, vague, ambivalent.
This entry sucks too. I read good blogs out there and those people just seem to convey their feelings so well! And then I read mine and get very disheartened. How did they know what exact words to use? And how did they think of so many bombastic words? Argh, I even have to use the dictionary to recheck the meaning of ambivalent, just in case I get it wrong.
=(
Posted at 2:20:30 am by expectation
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