No please stop calling me Sweatlee. My actual name is Suet Li, 18, unemployed, college dropout.
Loves to eat. Plays basketball. Hates to drive. That's basically all you need to know about me.
I went shopping yesterday! And I mean SERIOUSLY shopping.
I bought 17 tops and 3 sweaters 0.o
17 of the same top but all in different colours and maybe a little different in design 0.o
These are only some of them. All from Aeropostale, an American brand.
And you'd never believe how much I spent.
I'm not trying to be humble but I seriously look like shit here. I bought two of this, one grey and one white.
In serious need to lose some weight. I bought 10 of this top, all different colours. Because the material is really thin, I bought a few same ones. So if it tears, i can throw away and have another spare one waiting for me! =D
It took me 2 hours to find a sweater my size.
Faster guess! Okay think of the amount in your head and see if you get correct or not wtf. I'll tell at the end of this post.
Happy but ugly Suet
Went swimming so I was wearing my new bikini! Super cheap RM45 only okay! From Triumph. I'm a sucker for cheap stuff.
Cause Barry said I look different and weird here =(
Oh yeah for people who don't believe I have a tummy, here's a pictorial evidence. I didn't edit anything at all.
Btw, the skirt is RM10 from Summit. Hoho but I don't wear it also. See! Now you believe me when I say my tummy is protruding and looks weird?
SOOOO ready to hear how much all my stuff are? ALL my 17 tops and 3 sweaters?!
OKAY it's JENG JENG JENG...
RM 27.20
Seriously I'm not pulling your leg! I bought them from a warehouse in Summit. They sell the clothes by weight, 100g for RM1.
Hohoho I'm so so so contented with my clothes! It's like how much I'll spend for a top but i bought 20 times the amount, plus THREE sweaters okay.
P.S: I went again today and bought more stuff =( It's uncontrollable! They don't have the nice tops I bought anymore (cause I think me, my sis and our friends bought everything.) But there are loads more sweaters, most are L-sized so you gotta dig harder for S-sized ones. I dug for 2 hours again T___T I should make digging my proffession wtf. (since i like digging my nose too hmm)
*HAPPY
Now I'm all prepared to brace the cold in US! --
I just finished watching Heroes! Why would they wanna make us wait till April 23rd for the new season?!! I can't waittt.
EDIT: EH EH I FORGOT TO MENTION! the pair of shorts i was wearing is from WH and is only ....RM...19. Yeap from RM69 and now it's only RM19! and i bought a pair of miniskirt at that price too! =D
I just got fired. Boohoo, yes from my BEST job ever =( Actually no, I didn't get fired but they said they don't need us to do this anymore. I think they know this job is rather too easy and the pay is a tad too much. =((( boohoooo.
I'm really sad not cause of the easy money I'd earn but because I've already planned my day-to-day outfit! I haven't even shown my entire wardrobe yet! On Sunday, we planned to wear jerseys to work! And I wanted to wear my nice kimono top on Monday!
Great. Now I'd just have to wear them at home =(
Great. Now I'm back to being a super couch potato since my friend borrowed me the entire season 1 of Prison Break.
La li da.
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I was thinking of the things I wish i can do in life and I came up with these two: 1. To be able to sleep whenever I want 2. To be able to shit whenever I want
I really hate it when I badly need to sleep and I just can't! Have you ever get that too? Like you know you have to wake up early and you badly need your 8 hours of sleep regime but try as you might, you just can't zonk out?
I really hate that.
Remember I once talked about how I have those dreams when I was still awake as an indicator of whether I might fall asleep soon or not? Like before I fall asleep and my mind is thinking about something and then I couldn't remember what I thought of a second later because they're all jumbled up? Like dreams when you are awake?
Yeah so I tried to cheat my own mind into doing that. Like I'll think of something and a second later I'll tell myself that "aiyah what I thought of ya? Aiyah cannot remember already!" and pray that my mind will somehow think that it's time for bed and I might fall asleep soon. Bah no such luck.
And the worst thing is, the harder I try, the more awake I get! Irony rules this world man.
My friend told me that in order to fall asleep, you must empty your mind. Emptyyy your mindddd.
How the hell do you do that??
I tried and failed miserably. I tried thinking of a black space. black space. black space. And I have no idea how but I suddenly thought of myself doing chicken dance in that black space! And the worst part is I don't even know how to do chicken dance in real life!!
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Okay let's move on to my next wish. I wish I can shit whenever I want. period.
I hate sitting on the toilet bowl and try to force myself to shit. It's like when I'm busy doing something else, I get that terrible urge but when I sit on that throne, it refuses to come out! Why got so stubborn shit one!
So I usually tell myself that okay it if still doesn't come out by the time I reach the end of this page (I MUST read when I shit), that's it I'm getting up. And when I reach the end of that page, the shit feels like coming out but when I flip the page, it goes back in!!!!!11
Zomg in retrospect that does sound kinda disgusting.
Sigh if only I have some supernatural power like in Heroes. My power would be! whenever I wish I want to do something, I get to do it. Like if I say, I wish I can sleep! And I sleep immediately. I wish I can drive! and I can drive. I wish I can get there in 2 mins! And poof I'm there in 2 mins. I wish I'm prettier and I'm prettier! I wish I can eat and not get fat! and i eat and not get fat. Haha doesn't make much sense but what the hell.
Oh and I'm starting my Mandarin class this week! I can't wait to be un-banana again! (i used to be able to speak and read and write when I was young. I guess it's an ability that wears off with age, especially if you don't practise it much)
Pardon me while I continue watching Heroes.
-- Oh here's Frus and I.
Thanks for visiting me during my Maxis job and belanja-ing!
Cause Frus said I only look thin cause I have my hair to cover my face. Nah so here's a pic without my hair and fringe and if i puff up! fat or not!
And here's a picture with Nicholas/ Kuzco.
I love readers who say hi and camwhore along with me! =D
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P.S: Happy April Fools' Day everyone! One word of caution, never try out ANY pregnancy jokes T________T
I'm bored stiff at home so let me just talk nonsense okay? I've been watching episodes of Heroes and Grey's Anatomy until I can practically recite lines in my sleep, which is really bad. Call this a..tvshows-freak syndrome.
So..my biggest fear. Up until now, my biggest fear in life has gotta be this: failure. I remember back when I was 12 and I was playing spin the bottle with my friends in some party. I told myself that if it's my turn, I'm so going to chose Dare and pray that someone dares me to kiss my crush. Yeap, it was my turn. Yeap, I chose Dare. And yeap, someone indeed did dare me to kiss my crush. Only that I didn't, because HE chickened out and said eww at me. That has gotta be one of the most humiliating thing that had ever happened to me.
So what does all that have to do with my fear of being a failure anyway? Erm, cause the next round, I chose Truth instead and someone asked me what my biggest fear is. Everyone obviously expected something like me saying that my crush will reject me, or that my biggest fear is the dark, boogeyman blahblah since I was only 12. But I said, very loud and clear, that my biggest fear is being a failure. Everyone kept quiet for a bit and then continued spinning the bottle, as if I didn't say a thing.
So I guess I already knew, 7 years ago, that my biggest fear is to be a failure. I guess that's why I kept throwing heaps of expectations onto myself, for fear that I might succumb to what I fear the most. I wake up every single day and ask myself this, will I fail today? Will I fail someone or myself today? That really stressed me up. Imagine living a life like mine, where you have to live up to your own expectations every single second.
You know what? Frankly, that really sucks. I get upset at the tiniest bit of things even. I didn't want to talk about this at first but since I'm already opening up a bit to people I don't know who are reading this, I might as well continue.
Because of this fear of being a failure, I kept having this nagging feeling that everyone doesn't like me. I have this whole pent-up tension amassed in me that I have to do better than this. I have to make people like me. I have to do this, I have to do that. When I meet new people, something inside me will instruct me on what to do and say and I get so terribly paranoid when people show the tiniest bit of disinterest in me. I'll keep thinking of what I did wrong and at the end of the day, I'll blame myself for everything.
So that really sucks. You know, having your own self eating you from the inside like that. Someone once told me that the deadliest foe of all is yourself. How true indeed, how true.
Sigh. Come to think of it, I just happened to remember that there's this other fear that I have. I'm really afraid of being alone. Not just alone as in physically alone, that I can handle. But the emotionally alone part. Sometimes it really scares me a lot that all I have in this big world is no one but myself. It scares me that people I love cannot stick by me forever, that I someday have to venture out to this vast space by myself, with noone guiding me along.
In fact, the thought of me leaving all this comfort behind is starting to freak me out already. I used to think that I'm independent, that I can live by myself pretty fine thank you. But then again, being independent doesn't really mean whether you're capable to live by yourself or not. Independence is whether you can stand back up when you fall without having someone to watch your back all the time. And I think I can't do that. I'm only 19! But 19 is pretty old. I can't necessarily expect people to watch my back all the time, not even my dear boyfriend can do that.
I guess that's something I have to learn.
And I don't want to live life like this. Live my life as if I'm running where I'll look at the tree ahead and tell myself that I HAVE to run till I reach that tree in order to lose weight and when I do reach that tree, I stop and heave a big sigh of relief. No, I don't want my life to be like that. I don't want to live because I HAVE to go on, but because I want to go on.
Heck this doesn't seem relevant at all and I don't think I even understand what I just said but it does sound good..
I'm ending this entry hanging and open-ended like this, because it's exactly what I'm feeling now; uncertain, vague, ambivalent.
This entry sucks too. I read good blogs out there and those people just seem to convey their feelings so well! And then I read mine and get very disheartened. How did they know what exact words to use? And how did they think of so many bombastic words? Argh, I even have to use the dictionary to recheck the meaning of ambivalent, just in case I get it wrong. =(
The most WTF convo I've ever read. It's between my sister and my boyfriend.
-- Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: yo mama serene ada? SUET says: yang itu harusnya dijawab dengan betul? Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: ya SUET says: iya...dianya lagi nontonin television Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: nontonin?? SUET says: iya Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: cakap sama dia gua mahu pegi berak sekarang SUET says: watch television SUET says: iya SUET says: lalu cucinya tangan iya? SUET says: jangan lupaen Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: ok babai Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: mesti lari, hampir terkeluar dari anus dah SUET says: ini budak...kotor rupanya Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: itu serene masih tonton tv ah SUET says: iya SUET says: lagi nontonin SUET says: kamu kenapa? Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: kita ada online date SUET says: jam berapa? Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: 11 SUET says: udah lewat SUET says: tunggu sebentar ya SUET says: gue yakin die lagi bersolek utk date kamu Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: wtf SUET says: perempuan harusnya kelihatan yang terbaik Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: webcam dia pun dah tak berfungsi SUET says: tapi ini date kan? SUET says: datenya harus solek cantik2...pakainya lawa2 SUET says: iya kan? SUET says: kamu ngak mahu temanmu muncul masa date mukanya ngak basuh..pakainya seperti pengemis..badannya busuk kan? Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: apa apa pun boleh sebab tak leh tengok atau hidu pun SUET says: tapi dalam pemikirannya penting SUET says: kamu jangan lupa omongin sama dia yg dianya kelihatan cantik bangat SUET says: penting SUET says: kamu faham ngak? Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: faham faham Barry Ooi Eu Hock says: tapi bagi dia tau, dah lewat SUET says: <---This is me wtffffffffffffff HAHAHA SUET says: WTFFFFFFFFFF --
*omongin means telling or something
Sis likes Indon movies so yeah, that explains it.
Oh yeah been meaning to write this for some time. I know it's the scholarship-applying season now so to my readers who are in the same madrush I was in exactly a year before, here are some advices from me.
The main thing is, don't try to be a hero like me. If you didn't get 12/13 As, I think you shouldn't try applying for Art subjects when you were doing Science all this while and didn't even take a single Art subject. I'm not sure, you could try of course. But from personal experience, I wasn't even shortlisted when I indicated that I wanted to switch stream.
Try finding as many scholarships as you can. Learnt about kebarangkalian right? It widens your chances (I don't know what happened to mine T___T) Try Recom.org. It helped me a whole lot last time. or tinkosong.com, very informational site as well.
In case you didn't know, I got straight As, applied for a grand total of TEN scholarships, got shortlisted for five and didn't get any. Don't mean to brag but I think my cocurriculum was really quite strong too but bah, nevermind. I did get accepted for UWC (I talked about UWC here. Do read the comments too, some were quite good) but I only got partial scholarship so I didn't go. Anyway, I do encourage everyone to apply to UWC. It's really very extremely good. Think about the prospect after coming out from a UWC. I should've gone despite the high cost, really.
And most importantly, do your own research first. Do not expect to be spoonfed. It's time you grow up anyway, what say you?
Also, if you didn't get anything at the end of the day, don't worry. Look at me, I'm a perfect living testament to this. In fact, I'm truly happy that I didn't get any scholarship so that I am not stuck in this place. I did my own research and found a better place so I'm quite happy now.
I don't mean to say that you should apply to the states too, just that if you don't get any scholarships, so what? It seriously is not and will not be the end of the world. Maybe it just means that you're not fated to stay in Msia any longer =D (not that I really want to leave huhuh let's not talk about that first shall we!)
I don't know what else you guys wanna know but do email me if you need to know anything. I'll be glad to help. If you want to know more about American education and why I applied, you can leave a comment and if there are a lot of requests, I'll do a good post on it later.
Seriously, don't be shy to ask. No question is stupid, you'd never know if you don't ask.
Lastly, good luck everyone!
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omg i was reading thru my archives and found this post. Siao. Now I really feel like blogging more and more. I didn't know so many people love me so much <3 feel so happy. But hmm, truthfully, to people who have been reading me since I first started, do you think my style changed? Like for the worse?
And I also found this post. Wow, it scares me. I didn't know I was thattt strong back then.
I've got nothing to do at all and I have another hour left before Grey's Anatomy starts. bummer. My oh my what should I do? I've read all the blogs there are, I've read all the recent updates of my favourite show in the whole wide world One Tree Hill, and I've messaged everyone in my contact list (which is a lie).
Another 40 minutes.
Sister's new phone and my ancient artifact and a free strawberry yoghurt.
The best cereal ever. Did you know that Giant don't sell this anymore?! How can! CAP'N CRUNCH'S PEANUT BUTTER CRUNCH is the super shiznit okay. I'm so gonna boycott Giant for now.
There are two ways one can enjoy this:
1. Dump as many peanut butter crunch as you can into your mouth, pause for a moment to take it all in and then do IT. Munch and feel the orgasmic taste of peanut butter melts in your mouth (and if you like, moan to add to the effect)
2. My way of eating this: throw them in one by one as fast as you can and just keep on munching. Yum. I did a video while eating this to see how fast I can go but too lazy to post it up.
okay since i've got time, here's the video. and this video doesn't justify the speed which I can eat ok! I can do faster than this!
So how do you like to eat your Cap'n Crunch Peanut Butter Crunch? wtf
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How is my BEST job in the world, you may ask? Good baby, it's gooood. =D
Oh by the way (trying to insert this extremely casually so as to not sound odd), I saw this today while walking around 1u.
Hmm I wonder what are they looking at! Looks so coooool, no?
Must take picture with cool things cause I'm cool too wtf.
Err (still trying to sound casual), I think everyone should give this booth a visit when they go 1u okay? I heard that they have this in Midvalley, Sunway, Sg Wang and Lowyat too. Don't ask me how I know.
And err, got competition also. Join lah ya?
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Was at this place called Shall We Meet for dinner the other day. Super sien and while waiting for my friend,
Suet the Fierce
Lazy wanna choose pictures so here are ALL of them.
Suet and J.D
Suet the Retard
At this point, lots of patrons were already staring at me weirdly and the servers were whispering about me to each other.
But I did not care! Because I had a reputation as a camwhore to keep. So here are more.
Suet the Happy =)
Suet the Unhappy =(
20 more minutes! woot!
Suet the Serious (is anyone bored of me yet?)
Yer stupid place that turned off their lights while we were still eating although it was after their closing time already (so rude okay!) and now wanna let me smell their butts. bah.
Yay 10 more minutes! I'll just stare at the TV till the show starts then.
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I can't decide who's cuter! Patrick Dempsey (McDreamy in Grey) or Milo Ventimiglia (Peter Petrilli in Heroes).
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