Feel so much at home and picture tag
It only takes one day of being alone to realize that god, i miss home so much.
We have 4 days off for Fall break, Aud and Angie are in Boston, my roommate went back to New York, I have no classes and I've been sitting in front of my laptop watching 6 episodes of Grey's Anatomy ever since. I have 1 paper to write and a lot of French to revise. I ate leftover from yesterday's dinner for lunch and I'm supposed to call my friend so we can go to Walmart together but I just don't feel like it.
I don't feel like a lot of things. I don't feel like turning the tv on, I don't feel like walking out of my room, I don't feel like doing my homework, I don't feel like studying, I don't feel like anything. So what does one do when one doesn't feel like anything? Is it okay to feel like you don't feel like doing anything? Is it okay to go through life realizing that in all honesty, you don't even feel like doing all of this anymore?
tick tock.
At this moment right here right now, I wish I'm back home. I wish I'm back in Form 5 where we all have this same common goal of doing well in SPM. I wish I'm back to those times when I knew what I was doing and actually felt like doing it. If I'm at home, I'll never be lonely. My mother's perpetual nagging will make me feel so much at home. My brother and sister will be arguing over everything now and I'll feel so much at home. My friends and I will joke over stupid random things in a mamak till the wee hours of the morning and I'll feel so much at home.
Feel so much at home.
I'll never feel at home here, try as I might I know I'll never get used to this place. This place where the leaves are turning red, this place where people say can't instead of cunt, this place where people think it's ok to have sex and moan as loud as they want when the walls are as thin as papers.
Screw it, as much as I hate this, I still have to go through it. I'm gonna call my friend so we can terrorize Walmart together. Yes, I'm going to do just that right now.
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Aiseh since I have nothing better to do now, I shall do Eevon's tag.
When I was reading her blog entry about this tag, I was like screaming at her to tag me tag me!! cause it's a picture tag =D and everyone loves picture tags!
I'll try to find pictures I've never posted here before or really old pics so you don't see repeated pics ok?
the most recent picture of you:
When was this taken?
Last week I think. (that's how fat my face is if I don't have my hair to cover part of it and that's how i look if i smile from front)
Who took it?
Dunno wtf
Where was it taken?
Aud's room
a picture of you making a peace sign:
Is this picture in color?
Yeap. I know I'm supposed to put one picture only but I want to show them all! First pic was at Port Dickson last year, 2nd pic was last 2 years before I left for South Africa, 3rd was in 2005 when there was the haze thingy.
Are your nails painted in the picture?
Nopes
a picture of you with a friend:
Who are you with?
Andy Goh in PD =)
a picture of you in a weird/random place:
Where were you?
Laundry room!!! Haha i was waiting for my clothes to dry (will post all the other pictures later)
Who took the picture?
Self-timer
a picture of you in black and white:
Did you edit this picture to black and white or did you take it like that?
Took it like that i think, back during my school days. This was taken right after SPM! It was a happy happy day =D
Do you like blackandwhite or color pictures better?
doesn't matter as long as i look good la wtf
a picture of you with your hair up:
Jess' surprise party
Heng cutting my hair wtf (i miss being a scout T_T)
Picnic <3
Do you like your hair up?
Yeah I guess..a picture of you with a WEIRD face:
2003
Is your face more funny or just straight up scary?
HAHAHHAHAHAHA SCARY LIKE HELL WTF
a picture of you wearing a black colored shirt:
long before I know how to put make up and how to pluck my eyebrows, and back when I have my nosebled sessions whenever I drank coffee.
a picture of you wearing a red colored shirt:
strangling my dog wtf
i got these pictures from my old blog! Long before I know how to smile with my mouth open.
a picture of you wearing a green colored shirt:
with a gnome
a picture of you with your halloween costume:
WTF hahaha
a picture of you looking mad:
(actually it's a picture of you with your mouth open but I don't have such indecent picture ok, my mouth is always closed wtf)
Why were you mad?
Because I was late for something i think (as usual)
oklah that's all, for those who are waiting for this,
I tag:
Jiameei love
Prudence Pang wtf
Audreee 001
Suann
huiwen!
Aiseh I don't know who else have a lot of pictures so I'm gonna go blog-hopping now (since I'm damn free) and tag you guys instead ala cheesie style. If you're tagged then do it lah if don't want also it's ok.
=D
p.s: T_______T as fate would have it, my nose bled and stained my white top. then my period came and there was so much blood it looked like i just killed a fetus in the toilet bowl.
Posted at 3:06:18 am by expectation
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