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Hello I hope you guys read this after not being able to access my blog through blogasian. I changed it to sweatlee.blorc.com since it's easier and shorter. Spread the word and link me there!Again,sweatlee.blorc.com
so long, blogdrive!
Posted at 1:02:18 am by expectation
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Hello I hope you guys read this after not being able to access my blog through blogasian. I changed it to sweatlee.blorc.com since it's easier and shorter. Spread the word and link me there!Again,sweatlee.blorc.com
so long, blogdrive!
Posted at 4:31:34 pm by expectation
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I woke up today and did something I've never done in the mornings before I go to my 8.30am class- I checked the weather online. THANK GOD!!! Cause I planned to only wear a tshirt, sweater and sweatpants but thank god i checked the weather first!
CAUSE!
This morning it was -4 celcius outside.....n...e..g..a....t..i...v.e.. f.o..u.r...

I rubbed my eyes cause I just woke up and thought that my eyes are deceiving me but they're not T___T So I quickly put on another coat, scarf, gloves and boots wtf. Before I opened the door I prayed first wtf but it's true ladies and gents, it's true that it was really -4c outside.
LOOK!
FROZEN GRASS ZOMG *jakun kao kao
(picture stolen from some website when i googled frozen grass wtf but it looks exactly the same!)Seriously lah have you ever seen frozen grass ar?! Not just dews ok these are like when you take a patch of grass and leave it in the freezer for one night (if you're weird like that wtf)
When I saw it while walking to class, I was seriously bewildered beyond words. I stood there with my mouth gaping wide for a good minute or two, eyes glued to at all the grass around me. After I noticed the first patch of frozen grass, suddenly all the world had became a big fat patch of frozen grass.
Here there everywhere also frozen grass.
I know it's somewhat a pretty sight but it's not ok it's damn fuckingly mind numbingly cold and dreadful. After I finished gaping at the frozen grass, I got so angry at the cold that I stepped on the grass to melt the ice wtf. It worked!! But since all the world had became frozen grass, I couldn't afford to waste my time melting ice on grass when I had Calculus I class to attend to.
Sigh. It would make a noble profession. Grass stepper works her way into eradicating cold forever from this face of the earth.
Trees outside my window also botak already. Bald. Chauve. Kong tao. ineporrenge wtf.Oh whee whoopdeedoo! It's 7 celcius now. Sigh better than nothing la hor. My stack of Indomie is slowly diminishing (Econ wtf. The law of diminishing indomie wtf) T_T how how how anyone wanna sponsor and send some to me??
I was just looking at my pictures and I saw these, pictures I took before I left,

Oh Court 3's Thai Fried Rice, I'd so do ANYTHING to have you right now. Seriously if I have to resort to something as bad as standing in the cold for one hour before I can have this, I'D DO IT!!!!!!!!1 I'D SO DO IT!! 

OH Darus' KEROPOK LEKOR YANG CRUNCHY!!!! My after-clubbing food T__T 
 Roti Telur Bawang T__________T 
 MAGGI GORENG T__T 
 Jiameei my love T__T Something I've been craving a hell lot lately: claypot fried rice and claypot lou shee fun from Murni SS2             
                 
              
           
         
wtf gone mad already 
The other day I was telling my mom how I miss the food back home so much then she got upset wtf cause I never say I miss my family. Seriously if I have a choice between seeing my family or eating claypot lou shee fun I'm sure no one will be surprised when I, without thinking, will subconsciously choose the latter wtf.

P.S: Thanks to my readers Shin San and Crash, I might be going home for summer after all =D I love you guys *big wet eyes Seriously lah i have the nicest readers ever! Got so many people visited me when I was working to cheer me up, heck some even brought food (mcD and beard papa mmm)!! Got people wanna sponsor me hosting and free domain and now got people helping me to get cheaper ticket home *touched T_T P.P.S: ZOMG SUPER SHOCKED NOW. Remember I talked about this bad guy in school I dated? Well I wondered what happened to him after writing that post so I looked for him in Friendster. Spent 1 hour looking at pictures of people with the same name but couldn't recognize which one is him wtf.So today I asked one of his best friends whatever happened to him and he said HE'S MARRIED NOW.*faints
Posted at 6:36:30 pm by expectation
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The hardest part about studying is always the starting point. Once you get started, it's easy to go on for hours but the toughest part is that one minute when you decide to put everything away, grab a book and just study.
My that one minute never came. Midterms are next week and I reserved whole of Fri, Sat and Sun to study but guess what day is today? Sat. Guess when I started studying? Never. Guess what I did yesterday till 3am? Surfed blogs. Searched for cheap ticket home. Watched funny Cantonese horror shows with Aud and Angie. Added RSS in my blog (wah why am I so tech-savvy wtf actually all I did was i gave my blog's password to Clem and he did that for me wtf)
The thing with exams is I always feel demotivated somehow. Like there's no drive/mojo/whomp wtf inside me to start studying for exams. I'll go like cheh still got 2 days, chillax la wtf. Oh why oh why did I bring that Malaysian trait here with me.
Bad news: Remember my shoes that I bought from Ebay?? They didn't fit......... T___________T I've always thought I'm a size 6 (NO THANKS TO STUPID VINCCI WTF) but I'm actually US Size 6.5. So sad cause the white pumps are really super damn nice so unless 1.) i bind my feet till they're size 6 or 2.) i have to sell them away
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I went to bed at 3am last night but only really fell asleep about 4. I had so much stuff in my head (no none about my exams wtf) I was mainly thinking about stupid things I've done when I was younger. Like real stupid things. Like real real stupid things that only my closest friends know. Like real real real stupid things ok I think you get the drift now wtf.
Ya I know you want to know what those stupid things are. It takes me a lot a lot of courage to decide if I should write this but those are all really a part of me in the past and I should hell not be ashamed of what made me who I am today (fulamak damn drama wtf)
(actually truth is I damn lazy wanna start studying so have to find things to blog about wtf)
Ok when I was 14/15 (zaman kegelapan wtf) (jahiliah wtf), (i like to talk in brackets wtf), sigh lemme pause for a while. The only reason why I'm making fun of all this is because I don't wanna dwell in my sadness =( So I'm trying to be happy and jolly as if I don't give two hoots about it =(
*serious mode on
Ok when I was 14/15 when I first started losing lotsa weight, there were suddenly so many guys going after me. Being the girl who was never ever given any attention before, I relished them greedily. I gave in and started 'dating' everyone I think worthy of my 'love'. The basketball captain? I had him. The bad boy in my school? I had him. The super cool rapper/beatboxer wtf? My basketball coach who was young and handsome (not old one ok wtf), my drum teacher who was 10 years older than me and who was in a somewhat popular local band? The bartender where I used to work at? yeap yeap yeap (when i say i had him means i once dated him ok not involved sexually wtf i was only 15/16 la wtf dunno what's sex also)
Oh boy, the bartender. What a huge horror story of how I was so close to being violated physically and mentally. Or maybe I WAS violated but perhaps only too young, stupid and naive to know that. All I remember was how dirty I felt after all that and wished like crazy to have myself cleansed. (which might be the reason why I went to church religiously after that wtf..excluding the fact that there was free food)
Last night, I cringed at the thought of how I was so proud of those supposedly 'cool' guys I was dating. Sometimes two at once, sometimes many more. But now that I look back, I can't find the popular, attractive girl that I thought I was. I only see a trashy attention-seeker trying to get her hands on every single guy there is on this planet. Oh what a whore. Oh what a creature that rhymes with the word snitch.
So when I see girls once my age going through that, I wish I can ask them to stop and think because I truly have been through all that. I was the girl who was so fat and ugly and unwanted but suddenly turned from an ugly duckling to a swan. I was the girl every guy used to look in disdain at to a girl I am today. When I see my sister going through that, I wish I can tell her what I've been through. I wish she'll get past the phase like how I did. I wish she'll fall but learn from the fall and find the perfect guy for her like how I found mine. But I have no guts to bring myself to tell her that I only want the best for her and not want to take what she has away. that this is not a competition and we're not competing against each other to see who's the best.
Sigh damn emo wtf but this is a true story and this is the story that I have to tell. I guess when you bring yourself to admit the truth then it kinda stops haunting you. I am not the perfect girl I portrayed myself to be here. I'm so full of flaws and so terribly ashamed of who I was so I try concealing it but it always comes back to you, you know? This is my story and I'm not ashamed of it anymore.
(damn drama wtf)
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Listening to: Wang Lee Hom - Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge (A Simple Song)
I damn damn like Lee Hom laaaaaa
Posted at 2:06:35 pm by expectation
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